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before i go

Billie pov:

Me and y/n have been doing pranks for a while and I'm ready to go the next mile.

I know this is gonna hurt my baby but it has to be done.

She already knows how much I've struggled with depression in the past. She knows about my suicidal attempts. I know this will break her heart, but I want to end these wars.

I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote my 'suicide note.'

To dear y/n:

To start love I'm so so sorry for doing this, but I can't go on anymore.
My heart only beats for you, but these days I feel as though the beating has stopped.
The warm blood rushing through my veins has ran cold. The smiles imprinted in my mind by you have been filled with my thoughts and emotions.
I want so badly to give you what- who you deserve. I want to give you happiness but I can't seem to give it to myself .
I've always thought of love as a funny thing.
Why would a person give they're heart to someone at the risk of them demolishing it.
I mean that's quite stupid, but I know why now. Because of you I know why.
Every fiber in my body has this burning desire to do nothing but love you. Every kiss I give you is like an angel itself has blessed me.
Even though through all this I feel I don't deserve your kisses, I don't deserve you. I wouldn't have the heart to remove myself from you without breaking so this is my only conclusion. Call the police, please don't go in the bathroom.

I love you so so so so much.
I tried to give you the world but I couldn't, for I can not give you yourself, because you baby are my world.

My sincerest apologies - bil

I inhaled sharply as I sat it in the table by the front door, not being able to I'm bison what her reaction could be.

I'm getting more and more nervous by the second.

Baby🧸❣️: I'm omy home love

I smile at the pet name.

I then soon frown know how hurt she's gonna be.

I set the camera up and start pouring the fake blood all over my arm.

I get a knife and stain it with the remains.

I sigh shakily at the camera.

"Baby I love you so so much and I hope you'll know I would never do this to you, to us. I love you entirely too much for that."

I said to a camera.

I again debated whether or not I should do this.

Baby🧸❣️: baby?

I saw her contact name ping on my phone again. My heart wrench.

I ran to her room and got some makeup to make an allusion of eye bags as if I was crying.

I then made tear strikes on my face.

I looked at the camera once more.

"I'm sorry baby girl. You are my hearts and soul. You are the reason I live so please forgive me."

I sighed. I don't need water, I might start crying for real.

I went back to the bathroom and
I bit my lip and laid on the floor, holding the knife in my hand.

I hear the front door unlock and y/n calling my name. I hear silence until a piece of paper is being torn

I hear a gasp and small sobs.