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" know you ride it out I might just die tonight But you know I'm still coming through baby I know it's bad for me And you know it tastes so sweet I think I need your abuse baby Girl you do damage to me" -poison;Brent faiyaz
Billie
I drove around aimlessly, the fight from minutes ago still replaying in my head.
I bit my lip tears flowing out my eyes.
I huffed thinking about the fight once more.
Not being able to see anymore from my blurry eyes, I park the car and hit my head on the steering wheel.
Fuck!
{20 minutes ago}
I look up as the door bust open.
There was y/n with a phone in her hand tears roaming down her face.
"What the hell Billie ?!" She questioned loudly.
I looked at her in confusion.
"What?" I said cautiously.
She threw my phone at me and I jumped back from the contact.
I looked down at the phone to see that it was my drug dealer and y/n having a conversation.
DD: I got the stuff :what stuff?
DD: the xanny and oxy you asked for?
:oh ok
DD: you want it or nah?
She left him on read.
I looked at her scared and approach her slowly.
"why Billie?! We've talked about this!" She yelled the now steadily tear flowing rapidly down her beautiful face.
I bit my lips my own eyes starting to tear.
"I'm sorry mama." I whispered and took her hands in which she's snatched back.
My heart pings at the look on her face.
"No Billie" she whispered looking at me sadly.
"I'm tired of always being the one to find you passed out or rushing you to the hospital to get your stomach pumped. I'm tired of seeing you out of it and not loving me the way I should be loved! I'm tired Billie! I'm tired of always being on the receiving end of your shit!" She yelled stumbling back and her voice sounding raw from crying so much.
Her face held all types of emotions I couldn't decipher.
My heart shred looking at her dreaded and heart broken face.
She started running her hand through her hair and face.
"I'm tired. So tired Billie." She sighed and sat down.
I tried to wrap my arms around her but she shot back.
"No! You don't get to touch me! You haven't showed me you loved me in ages!" She pouted eyes not even filling up anymore because of the constant crying.
"I've deal with you being a druggie for too long bil! I love you too much to see you break down and not say a single word to me! Your not telling me how you feel and it hurts! Why are you even doing this shit?!" She questioned looking at me searching my face for answers.
I shrugged.
"I don't know angel." I whisper.
She got up from her seating area and laid against the wall and balling her fist, angry tears trolling her beauty.
"You don't get to do that! Say that! Why?!" She asked once more.
I said nothing. She slammed the back of her head on the wall.
"Answer me god damnit!" She sobbed and fell to the floor.
Daggers stabbing my heart and guilt tearing my face as tears pour down my own cheeks.
"Get out!" She yelled. I look at her in shock.
"Get the fuck out bils!" She yelled again. I nod defeated and walk out yeh door angry tears falling down my face.
I jump in and drive off to no where.
{present} I can't do this shit
I need my love, my baby, my angel
I turn around and drove back to the house.
I open the door and see her staring into space.
I run to her and hug her tightly.
She doesn't try to escape me this time, I'm guessing being weak.
I shush her.
"Shh it's okay mama." I whisper.
"No it's not bil! I love you so so much and I don't even think you love me anymore." She whisper.
I bit my lip to stop from crying.
My baby
"No mama!" I say sternly, the hurt Clear in my voice.
I squeezed her.
"I love you so much angel, I don't know why I do this shit but I'll stop ok? For you I will." I whisper staring into her eyes.
"Ok?" I repeat. She nods and I kiss her pouty lips.
