Pinn - World Tour

Hoodie

Warning: Triggering subjects.
Piper's POV:
Finn and I were sitting by the pool when he took my hand. I held it gently. We sat there for a while before I finally spoke up. "Finn...I really love you. But sometimes if you love someone you have to let them go." I heard him sigh before he turned to me. He squeezed my hand, "I get it Pipes. I feel the same." I smiled softly and stood up. "Goodnight Finn." "Goodnight Piper."

Finn's POV:
"Finn...I really love you. But sometimes if you love someone you have to let them go." My insides churned. I didn't understand? Surely if you loved someone you would do anything to stay with them? I tried to understand but I couldn't. Before I could ask what she meant I heard myself say, "I get it Pipes. I feel the same." I mentally hit myself. Why had I said that? I needed Piper. We wished one another goodnight and she left. I kicked the water. What had I done? I had just let her leave! I stared at the water, internally berating myself. After a while I stood and walked back to my hotel room. I lay on my back on the bed and stared at the ceiling until I fell asleep. My sleep was not a restful one and I woke up the next morning as exhausted as ever.

Piper's POV:
The next morning I woke up feeling dreadful. I crawled out of bed and to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. I had bags under my eyes and my hair had lost it healthy shine. I didn't recognise who I was anymore. Gone was the happy smiley girl of a few days ago. She was now a shell of the person she used to be. She had lost what made her whole. Sighing to herself, she got put concealer and began trying to cover my lack of sleep. It wasn't really working. I tried as best as I could but eventually I just gave up. I threw on some fresh clothes and woke Amy up. We had rehearsals for half the day before a performance in the afternoon. When we were both ready we went to the building next door to us and joined A-troupe on the stage. People gave me sympathetic which only made me feel worse. I looked around the group and noticed Finn wasn't there. Everyone else had noticed and was beginning to mutter about it quietly. Suddenly Finn came running in, panting heavily and said to Emily who was giving him an angry look, "sorry I lost track of time." "Ok well don't do it again." Emily could tell there was something wrong so she pulled Finn aside. I couldn't help but try to eavesdrop, "Finn are you alright?" He nodded his head and smiled, "I'm fine." There was a certain degree of fake in that smile and his voice held a tremor. Emily just nodded and sent him to start rehearsing with the rest of us. I noticed he didn't take off his hoodie. We ran through every dance we needed for tonight. We did the two 10 person dances first which wasn't the original order but I let it go. After all the dances had been run through it finally came to do me and Finn's duet. Nick, thank god for him, noticed and said, "you know what let's cut this dance. We have enough anyway." To my surprise Emily agreed and dismissed us to go get some rest before the show. I left with Amy and wondered why Finn was so late. And why he never took off his hoodie.

Finn's POV:
I woke up the next morning with a giant headache and an even bigger heart ache. I went to the bathroom and again noticed my razor sitting on the counter. I was drawn to the blade, to the pain that was stronger than the one in my heart. I reached for it and pressed it to my wrist. I reopened the barely healed cuts and created new ones. Blood trickled down my arm, more than last time. When I had finally blocked out the pain in my heart I tried to bandage my wrists. I put them on and only a few seconds later, the blood started to seep through. I must have cut deeper than I thought. I quickly put on more bandage until the blood no longer came through. I pulled on my hoodie and checked my phone. I was late to rehearsal so I quickly put on my trainers and ran out the door. I reached the stage next door and everyone turned to me. Emily asked me if I was alright and I lied and told her I was. We started a rehearsal and Heath asked quietly, "aren't you going to take of your hoodie?" I shook my head no, surprised he was even talk to me, "it's cold in here." He gave me a look to say he didn't believe me but dropped it anyway. We ran through all the dances. I felt light headed at times but pushed through, not wanting anyone to know I wasn't 100% ok. Eventually it came to me and Piper's duet. I glanced over at her nervously but she was looking at Nick who was talking, "you know what let's cut this dance. We have enough anyway." Emily agreed and let us to go get some rest before the show. I went back to my room, alone, and wondered why, for the billionth time, why I had let Piper go.

A/n: More coming in just a few minutes!