♥︎𝔹𝕖𝕠𝕞𝕘𝕪𝕦 ℙ𝕆𝕍♥︎
Life feels basic
Like it's to plain
It feels fun at one point
Now I don't know what to feel anymore
It's hard to express my feelings
As much as I think I can
I am hurting inside.
It was early in the morning.
Today I had to go to the company and practice.
I got ready and put on a smile.
"I'll try my best!" I say boldly as I go out to the kitchen to greet the boys.
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We got out of the car and went straight into the building. We practiced and practiced and practiced. I will always try my very best for MOA!
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Many hours past.
I sit there taking a break.
Thinking about her
I was in my 'thinking pose' with my head looking straight down at the floor.
"What is he doing?" Huening Kai asks. "Probably just thinking about Ryujin again" Soobin says, giggling a bit. "N-no! I'm just thinking on how I can improve my...dancing skills" I lie. "Why don't you go and see her?" Taehyun asks.
...I don't respond
"Didn't they like break up or something?" Soobin asks. "What? No! we just haven't seen each other in a while..." I respond my words getting softer as I speak. "This isn't very Beomgyu of you" Yeonjun said teasingly. I don't respond. "My head is too full of things, I should just dance it off" I say getting back up and into my position for the song to come on.
We continue to dance for a few more hours until it was time to go home.
"Why don't we stop at the café right there?" Huening Kai asks. We stop at the café. We drank our tea and talked for a while.
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When will I stop thinking about you?
When will I just let go?
When will I see you again?
I don't want to forget the memories, nor forget about you.
One day I will learn to.
I will.
But it's so hard.
Whenever I see or hear you in my head, I get these warm fuzzy feelings.
I miss you..
