♥𝔹𝕖𝕠𝕞𝕘𝕪𝕦 ℙ𝕆𝕍♥
I left Ryujin's dorm. I didn't want to disturb her. She was going to debut tomorrow anyways. We graduated from school not too long ago. Ever sense it was so difficult to talk to each other and see each other because we were so under pressure from our company's. When we both finally confessed it felt different. It felt as if I could always be by her side. When we held hands as the bus arrived, I never wanted to let go. She was the important one in my life that I've always needed. I got back to my dorm and decided to study a little bit of English. I saw how BTS needs to learn some English for their interviews and concerts in America. I only the tiniest little sentences to say in English. Yeonjun hyung was teaching us some English last night too. Today was almost over and for some reason it felt like a waste. But I understood that everything that I wanted to do today with Ryujin or my friends...we were setting things up to debut and setting our childhood dreams.
....I would've never thought in my entire life that I would meet my idols...be their "younger brothers" it felt as if everything I could be happy with is already starting to come together. My dad on the other hand...he passed away. My mum kicked him out because of his selfishness rudeness behavior. My mum always believed in me, no matter what I did. She gave me confidence before Ryujin. Ryujin made my confidence stronger. My dad used to say hatred things to me and my mother...even Ryujin. When he said horrible things to Ryujin, I of course stood up for her. My mum didn't mind. My dad was a alcoholic and a smoker. He died from lung disease just last year. The world seems to be a lot brighter with new people coming and old people going. I can't wait until I can finally see Ryujin again.
♥ℝ𝕪𝕦𝕛𝕚𝕟 ℙ𝕆𝕍♥
Today was the day. The day me and my unnies have been waiting for; nervous but excited. All we ever did was practice. I really wanted to hang out with Beomgyu too sometimes but time goes a lot quicker than I thought it used to. Today was the day that we can show everyone what we've got! "ITZY MIDZY NAIJA!". We walk up on stage as the beat starts. We do Amazing on our choreography as always and we finally go back to the dressing rooms. "We did it unnies! We officially debuted!" Yuna says holding up a glass of water. "Yah, why water?" Chaeryeong asks. "I'm too young Chaeryeong!" She replies acting cute but frustrated at the same time. We all pick up are "water glasses" and Yeji does a toast. "Even though we have been waiting for this moment are whole lives we can finally admit that it is true and blablaallaa-" I wanted to focus on what Yeji was saying but my mind tuned out. Beomgyu? Was Beomgyu there? Being so lost in my thoughts, my hands got slippery and the glass of water shattered all over the floor right next to me. "Uh-uH sorry! I'll help clean up" I say starting to pick little pieces of glass from the floor. "We don't want you to get hurt, go rest on the couch, hopefully you can't be clumsy there"A staff member says. Being unbothered I went and sat on the couch where the staff was pointing at and put my face in my hands. Yah Ryujin! Wake up it's time for reality not some one that you want to see here! My mind was trying to convince me to control myself but I felt bad so I just started crying without any intention of doing so. I remember how Beomgyu would put his hands on my shoulders and comfort me. I wanted him to be with me forever. If Only~
