Note:There will be a lot of angst and ⚠️Warning: Sudical thoughts and self harm⚠️
Bakugo's POV
That damn nerd, he took everything from me! My goals, my dream, the one I loved...and my chance to prove that I was good enough....
Shitty thoughts like these keep me up at night...I haven't been able to sleep lately..
I walked over to my cabinet and pulled out a knife and unrolled my sleeve...I really didn't want to do this, but more and more everyday I think about how much I wanna kill myself..
The knife's point sinked into my skin and droplets of blood were coming out.. I unrolled my other sleeve and cut my other arm..
I've been doing this for awhile now..Nobody knows about it, And nobody should.
Over Spring break I came to realize how strong Deku is becoming, and how I still need to catch up.
I wasn't even strong enough for this year's sports festival...Deku got 1st place.
I even made All might retire so he could save my weak ass..
Being #1 was my life's goal...but now that it's gone,
I have no reason to live..
In the morning
Uraraka's POV
Today I had to wake up extra early so I could have the training room all to my self.
As I was walking, I came across Bakugo.
"Hey, Bakugo! How come you're up this early?" I asked
"I just couldn't fucking sleep..What the hell are you doing up?"
"Well I was gonna practice my quirk...maybe you wanna train with me?"
"Fucking fine" He muttered as he followed me to the training room.
Me and Bakugo were fighting like we did in our first sports festival. Except this time I wasn't gonna lose.
He threw explosions at me as I floated myself so I could dodge some of them. I dropped to the ground and ran behind him. He tried to throw and explosion, but I put his arm behind his back and made him kneel.
I won! I won against Bakugo! His sleeve unrolled a little bit...
"W-what are all of these cuts...??" I trembled
"It's nothing! Just-
I unrolled more of his sleeve to see that there were cuts all over his arm...some of them were still bleeding..
He got up from the ground and rolled his sleeves back up.
"It's just scratches from training..." He mumbled
"Why are they still bleeding? If it's bleeding it's recent.." A horrifying thought came into my mind..But it probably wasn't true....right?
"Bakugo.....Did you do this to yourself..?"
"What? No why would I do something so-
Tears started to fall. "You did, didn't you?.. Why?" I cried
"What does it matter to you? Were not friends."
Those words really hurt..Me and him aren't close but we got along pretty good..
"Don't tell anyone what you saw...it doesn't matter.." That was the last thing he said, before he walked away..
Time skip
In class, I couldn't help but stare at Bakugo...why would he do that to himself..?? Should I tell someone..??
My first experience at UA was pretty good, but one person stood out the most..
Katsuki Bakugo...
He was so strong, and he never let anything get in the way of what he wanted.. He was confident...I admired him a lot..
What happened? What tore him down? Was it because Deku had improved? Was it because of Deku winning the sports festival?
"Urarka, Class is over. Your partner for this week's homework is Bakugo" Aizawa said
Ah! Class was over?! I sat up and got out of the classroom.. I went to the boys side and knocked on Bakugo's door.
"Who the fuck is it- right when he saw me, he glared.
"Um..we're partners...I thought we could study now.."I mumbled
"Tch. Whatever.." He muttered as he let me in.
I tried to be nice to him, since I felt bad.
"Need any help, Bakugo?" I smiled
Bakugo's POV
"Need any help, Bakugo?" She asked
"Stop it."
"Stop what?"
"Just because I wanna fucking kill myself, doesn't mean you need to pity me."
"I-i'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you.. I just don't want to hurt you more" She mumbled
"Why the hell do you care? I don't need you to worry about me..I'm fine."
"Why do I care? Because I care about you Bakugo.. and you did the same for me." She said
"What're you talking about?"
"Deku got really popular and stopped hanging out with me, One night I cried in the training room and the only person that was there for me was you..I just wanted to do the same"
"I didn't do that because I cared. I did it so you'd shut up." I said coldly
"Oh..ok, I'm done with studying..See you later..or not." She mumbled as she walked out.
Did I hurt her feelings or something? I didn't mean to..I'm so stupid
I didn't want her to leave..but I didn't stop her..
When this project's done..I don't think she's ever coming back...
If you were wondering where the hell Shittyhair is in all of this, He's on some misson with Fatso and if anxiety was a human.
I took out my knife..
Uraraka's POV
I was trying to be his friend, guess it didn't work. I thought,
that even after all of these years, he would be nice, even just a little bit..
But he's still the same selfish bastard he was back then..
I tried to be nice, but if he's gonna shut me out over and over again, what's the point?
...I still care about him though...
Heh, Back in the first year, I had this huge crush on him..
B-but not anymore! I've moved on! (Sure ;) )
I went to sleep because there was nothing else to do..
Three hours later
I woke up to hear a knock on the door. I got up and opened it...it was Bakugo..
"What?" I snapped
He rubbed the back of his neck, "D-did I wake you?"
"Yeah. What do you want?"
"I wanted to say that...............I'm sorry....." he mumbled
"What?" I asked
"I said I'm sorry, dammit! I didn't mean to hurt you...I never wanted too..I was just scared..of opening up to you.." He sobbed
I could see him trying to wipe his tears away.
"I'm sorry" he fell to the floor..
I knelt down and hugged him, "hey, it's okay..It's alright. We should go in my dorm, it's more private." I said as I helped him get up.
We sat on my bed. "Tell me, Why do you wanna kill yourself"
"I have no reason to live.."
"But you can't be the number one hero if you're dead."
"It's not like I would be even if I was alive..I'm just not strong enough."
"You might be just stressed.. I don't think you're not strong enough, I mean, even after the pain you feel, you still stand up and fight..that sounds strong to me"
"That's because I have you.." He mumbled
I smiled at him.
"C-can you stay here tonight...?" Bakugo asked
"Sure.." I smiled
"But promise me you won't cut anymore.." I said
"Okay, I promise"
I'm getting really tired.....I then shut my eyes and drifted to sleep..
Bakugo's POV
Uraraka fell asleep on my shoulder...I blushed. I guess I might as well sleep too...
In the morning...
I woke up to Uraraka on top of me...She was still asleep.
I don't know what it was, but all of a sudden depressing thoughts came in my head.
I needed to..cut..
I stood up and grabbed my knife..
《Flashback》
"But promise me you won't cut anymore.."
"Okay I promise"
《Flashback ends》
I'm sorry, Uraraka..but there's no other option..
Splat! Blood dripped to the floor.
"How could you?"
I turned around to see Uraraka glaring at me, with tears in her eyes.
"I-
"You promised me! How could you just lie to me?!"
"I didn't want to-
"Friends don't break serious promises..guess that shows that were weren't even friends to begin with"
I know she's mad..but does she really mean that?
"Just listen to me-
"I cared about you...and you let me down, AGAIN." She yelled as she stormed out of the room.
It's all my fault...
She hates me....
I wasn't even strong enough to avoid cutting myself...
Now I don't have anybody...
I have no reason to live....
So why not..
just end it?
Uraraka's POV
I'm so angry at him! He promised! Is it that hard to not self harm?!
Maybe I was too harsh.....
I was...I feel really bad now..
He's going through a lot and I'm making it worse....
I ran back to his dorm.
"Bakugo I-
He.... had stabbed himself... I went to him
"Bakugo! Bakugo please wake up! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" I sobbed
"Please don't leave me!"
"You'd be better off if I was dead." He smiled sadly
"No! I-I wouldn't! I...I'm in love you...." I cried
He sat up and kissed me.."I'm sorry..."
"Uraraka"
Hope you enjoyed!
I really wanted to do a sad story so here it is!
Also, To people out there who feel depressed,
It gets better, trust me😊
♡♡Thanks for reading!♡♡
