I've been lying

Chapter 12

It causes me such disturbance, my heart was beating so fast. The more I look into his brown eyes, the more I see through him.  Napatingin ako ng matagal sa kanyang mata at buti nalang natauhan ako kaya

"Rain let me go, this instant" He just looked at me and close his eyes. "I'm sorry it's too comfortable to let go" he smiled a little.  "Stay my Princess"

I can't breath totally, its because how tight he hugs me. Pero yung puso ko, ayaw tumihil sa pagtibok. Palpitate feeling toh kaya nakakabahala.

It's been an hour. He's been sleeping while hugging me. I confirmed it by looking how his breath became stable. I looked at his face napakamaamo, yung mala anghel na mukha. Buti nga pa siya may maanghel na mukha e ako nga parang parati g may kaaway sabi pa nga ni Iveylen.

I saw how perfectly flawless skin he has, a perfect build for a guy pero how could some people hurt him? I still remembered the day he gone to my clinic to check himself up and ask some of my help. Who the hell hurt him so much na nagkakaganito siya?

Hanngang ngayon kasi hindi ko alam ang reason at gusto kong alamin.

I looked at him one last time and trying to get out from his grip pero nakakainis  ayaw bumitaw.

Seconds...

Minutes...

And became an hour again... Hindi pa naman ako makatulog pa kasi ang haba ng tulog ko kanina. Bigla siyang nagsalita kaya napatingin ulit ako sakanya

"Don't leave me please?" I thought he was talking to me  pero nakapikit pa siya. Kaya i tried to wake him up pero ayaw niya din gumising "Rain, wake up!!" I tapped his cheeks multiple times ngunit napatigil ako ng may nakita akong lumandas na luha sa mga mata niya. Pumapatak ng pumapatak

"Don't leave me mom, please" He was dreaming. I covered my mouth. Bakit? I thought it was another reason. Di ko mapigilang lumuha. I don't know the story pero he was really really badly hurt from his past. I saw myself again to someone. Ang sakit mawalan ng Ina at ama, napakasakit.

I I tried to wake him up again and finally he does.
He stared at me. His eyes became red from crying and puff. I slowly raise my hands and wipe his tears gently.

"Does it hurt so much?" Im trying my best to stay calm and to keep my emotions at bay. "Masakit ba talaga Rain?" Bigla niya akong binitawan at umupo sa higaan. He wiped off his left tears then told me " I'm now okay, you can now leave"

Pero ayokong umalis, gusto ko matulungan ko siya mawala yung sakit. I saw those emotions a long time ago. I know how it hurts if you lost someone you really loved.

"Rain talk to me pls?" He eyed me but shakes his head and turn his back on me "I am fine princess, its just a nightmare."

He was about to stand up but I  did  the unexpected thing, I hugged him. He was shocked from what I did and neither am I.

I thought, aalisin niya yung kamay ko pero hindi niya yun ginawa kaya mas hinigpitan ko yung yakap ko sakanya.I hope it comforts him. This thing is what I needed the most noong times na yun pero walang nakapagbigay.

"I hate you princess, I fuckin hate you to the point I always loses at you!" he painfully told me and His shoulder started to shake, he was crying again.

I turn him around and hug him the best as I could. "I'm sorry Rain, I'm sorry." he keeps on sobbing, hindi ko kayang makita siyang ganito. Nasasaktan din ako. It's doctor-patient thing right?.

He held me more tight but not too tight to stop me from breathing.  " my mother was gone long time ago because of me, she was gone because I left her alone at home. " tinignan niya ako ng punong puno ng luha yung mga mata niya,   "namatay siya ng atakihin siya ng sakit niya.  I was too late when I brought her to hospital. It was too late. My dad became sad and turned himself to someone whom I don't know anymore. It was a perfect family until I became like this!!" I let go of him and wipe his tears pero pumapatak at pumapatak padin.

"I was left alone and really alone" he whispered to me those words. I hold him for long and he calmed down kaya I let him go and put him back to his bed . I look for the time it was past 7pm. We stayed longer than I thought so. I looked at him and smiled

"I'm here Rain, so you are not alone. Okay?" I ruffled his hair and smile a genuine one.

I ask him if he wanna eat something pero ayaw niya. Ayaw niya din akong umalis sa kwarto kaya sumigaw nalang ako kena manang para magpaluto at dalhin nalang samin.