Serendipity (ON HOLD)

•Break Down•

Hey babes I'm back!!! How have you all been? I know it's been so long since I've updated this story and I'm so sorry about that. I've been reading a lot on how I can make this story better and I tried some new stuff in this chapter that I hope improves the writing. Let me know what you think and I really appreciate everyone that is sticking with this story I should be updating regularly now xxx
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"Baby," I called out through our house.
     "Yes my love," she called back.
     "Are you going to be home for thanksgiving next week," I asked.
     She walked in the room with Jagger trailing behind her and laid down with her head in my lap. I dropped my phone and tangled my hands in her hair as she wrapped her arms around my waist and Jagger jumped up laying on top of her.
     "I am. How do you wanna celebrate," she said.
     "My mom invited us to her house but I don't know if I'm up for all the people," I shrugged.
     "What if we go on a trip?," she asked.
     "Well I do wanna spend a little bit of time with my family," I said.
     "Okay so we go by for a little while and eat with everyone and spend time together then we can leave," she said.
     "That sounds really nice baby," I said.
     "Yeah? Where do you wanna go," she asked taking my hand and leaving a light kiss on my palm.
     "I don't know," I said.
     "Let's go to Greece," she said.
     "Really?," I questioned.
     "Yeah we can swim and eat our weight in baklava plus it's gorgeous there," she said.
      "Let's do it," I said.
      "Come here," she said.
     She sat up making Jagger run off to our room to sleep, and pulled me into her lap so I was straddling her waist. She rested her hands on my hips right under my shirt and squeezed slightly making me giggle against her lips.
"I love you," she said.
"I love you more," I said.
"Impossible," she said pressing her lips to mine.
She pulled away smiling and I hooked my fingers around the back to her neck and rested my head on her shoulder. From where I was sitting I could see all the boxes that hadn't been unpacked and that the house still looked like a blank canvas.
"Ash, can we decorate today," I asked.
"If you want," she said.
"I do. I want to make it our apartment," I said.
"I would love that Sunflower," she said kissing my nose lightly.
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     "No baby, a little to the right," I said.
"But you just said to the left," she sighed.
"Yeah but you went to far left so now you have to go right," I said.
     She let out a huff but moved the picture of us a bit to the right so that it was aligned with the others. I told her it was perfect and she hooked it off the wall and climbed down from the stool she was standing on. Ash walked behind me and wrapped her arms around my waist and rested her chin on my shoulder as we looked at the pictures together. There were picture of Brad and I, Ash and her crew, us and our friends, and most of all pictures of her and I. My favorite one that Ash just hung up was one that we took when we first started dating. We were sitting on the Ferris wheel from our first date, Ash with a huge smile on her face while my lips attached to her cheek.
     We had spent half the day shopping for new stuff like pillows and knickknacks then the other half decorating the house. It felt so much like home. There were things Ash picked out and things I did but the wall full of our pictures made my heart warm. It was just her house anymore it was our home.
     "I love it! What do you think," I asked.
     "It's great. That's my favorite," she said pointing to one of her, Brad and I hanging out.
     "I like that one. And I love this house, you know living here with you," I said.
"I love it too and I love you," she said kissing my cheek lightly.
"I love you too," I said.
Ash's phone rang and she slid it out of her pocket and excused herself which I guess meant it was a work call. I was so happy for her, that she gets to live her dreams but I was terrified. I still had no idea what I was gonna do once I was finished with college. A couple of thoughts and ideas had ran through my mind but none of them really stuck.
I couldn't help but be a little bit jealous of Ash. She had everything figured out and was living out what she always wanted to do. I haven't even finished getting my degree. It feels like I'm just floating out in the middle of the ocean looking for an island or a raft. I feel lost.
"Thena! What's wrong? Why are you crying," Ash panicked.
She stood in front of me keeping her hands on my hips furrowing her brows. One of her hands rubbed up my arm softly then she pulled it up and wiped my tears.
"Nothing it's fine," I said.
"Don't lie to me. You're crying I know somethings up," she said.
     "I don't wanna talk about it. Can you just-," I sighed running my hands through my hair, "Can you just be here," I asked.
     She immediately wrapped her arms around my waist and I slung mine up around her neck. My legs wrapped around her hips and she hoisted me up by my thighs and carried me to the couch. She sank into the tan couch and i collapsed into her lap holding in the sobs that threatened to escape.
     "Whatever you need," she said softly.
     "Thank you," I breathed out.
     After my breakdown in the living room Ash suggested that we go take a nap. I was in that droopy state that you enter after you finish having a good cry so laying down for a bit sounded amazing. She carried me back to our room keeping her calloused hands hooked under my thighs and then set me down on the bed lightly and started to cover me up.
     "You aren't staying with me," I asked shifting so that I could look at her.
     "No Sunflower, I have a bit of work to do but I'll be right in the living room when you wake up," she said.
     "Okay," I yawned.
     "Have a good nap, love," she whispered leaning down to kiss my forehead. "I'll see you when you wake up."
     I hummed in response and she walked out the door turning the handle so that the door wouldn't slam. I moved around trying to get comfortable and ended up cuddling into the pillows. Almost as soon as I was situated my eyes fluttered shut and the darkness overtook me.
     Some time later I woke up with a sharp pain in my lower stomach and I winced as I stretched out. I threw the covers off of me getting ready to go out and my girlfriend when I saw the dark red spot staining the sheets and my shorts. At least that explains why I was on the verge of throwing a tantrum earlier then wanting to kiss Ash the next.
     "Shit," I grumbled to myself lifting my head back and letting out a loud groan at the pain my stomach.
The door slammed open and a concerned looking Ash came rushing to my side. I threw the covers back up over my lower half felling embarrassed.
"Thena? What's wrong," she asked with her brows furrowed and her lips pressed into a thin line.
"Nothing," I said.
"Please tell me. I wanna help," she said her expression softening. "Please."
I hesitantly lifted the covers back and her expression didn't waver for a second. The soft countenance that she was wearing seemed to be permanently etched into her face as she leaned down kissing my cheek softly.
"Awww Sunflower, it's nothing to be ashamed of. It happens," she said.
I nodded still feeling slightly self conscious and Ash disappeared into the bathroom and I heard the shower running. She came back into the bedroom and helped me out of the bed then lead me back towards the shower. Without a word she began to help me strip down until I was naked then she helped me get under the hot water. I let out a sigh of relief at the warm stream running over my body and relaxing all my muscles and I heard Ash laugh lightly.
"I'm gonna go to the store and get you some stuff," she said pulling the curtain back so she could make eye contact. "Do you want anything specific?"
"No thank you. I really appreciate it baby," I said.
"It's no problem I'll be back soon," she called.
I waited until the hot water turned cold and the pads of my fingers started to shrivel up before I forced myself out of the shower. I put on a fresh pair of underwear and one of the huge pads that I had under the sink on. I tried not to let the lack of comfort bother me and walked in the room to find the rest of my clothes.
My eyes landed on the clean sheets that Ash must've put on the bed and I almost burst into tears at how sweet she was being. When I was with Nick he always went out of his way to tell me how disgusting it was that I got my period. He acted like I chose to painfully bleed once a month so I always tried to hide it around him It was a nice change to have Ash try to take care of me and assure me that it was totally normal.
     Just as I pulled one of Ash's shirts over my head the bedroom door swung open to reveal her carrying a bunch of grocery bags. She set them down on the bed then flopped down and opened her arms gesturing for me to come sit with her. I laid down in between her legs with my back pressed against her chest as her fingers found their way under the hem of my shirt. She lifted it off my stomach and began to massage it slowly pressing a long, soothing kiss to my temple.
     "How are you feeling, princess," she asked co continuing to move her hands over my lower abdomen.
      "Better. Thank you for taking such good care of me," I said running my hands over her arms. "It means a lot to me."
     "It's my pleasure. I got what you usually use and all the snacks I know you like," she snuck her hands under the waistband of my shorts so she could cover the entire area with her slender fingers. "I just want you to relax until you feel one hundred percent better, okay?"
     "Okay. I love you," I said feeling my eyes began to fight closed again.
     "I love you too. Get some rest," she said.
     I snuggled up against her and fell asleep with her kneading her hands into my stomach and brushing my hair back. For the first time I was in a relationship that made me feel safe and accepted just the way I was and I couldn't have been more happy.