Warriors: The Hunt Begins

Lost Memories

"You remember everything?"

He groans again and sinks to his knees.

"Fergus?"

I step closer, but he put his hand out behind him.

"No. Don't. I hurt you. I... I've killed him."

His voice breaks and I see his shoulders shake hard as he starts crying. I take another step and he sobs.

"No, Mal. Don't. Please. I killed him."

He sobs harder and my heart breaks, tears roll down my cheeks.

"My son. My only son! I couldn't stop myself! I could see what I was doing, but I couldn't fucking stop! Why couldn't I fucking stop, Mallory?!"

"You couldn't stop?"

"I couldn't stop! Mallory, I killed him and my father, and I couldn't stop! Why couldn't I stop, Mal? Why couldn't I just fucking stop?!"

He breaks down and crumbles to the ground in front of me, and I just stare at him, trying to figure out what he means. I kneel down and hesitantly put my hand on his shoulder.

"What do you mean you couldn't stop?"

"I couldn't fucking stop, Mallory! I wasn't in control of my body or my wolf! I couldn't stop! I tried so fucking hard! Every second!"

He gets get off by sobs and tears are pouring from his eyes. I don't know what to believe. What if he's playing me again?

"I tried so hard, but I couldn't stop!"

"When was the last time you could control yourself?"

"Before I found my dad! I ran out to find him, but halfway there, I lost time somehow. When I woke up, I had no control of my body. I just got up and started running for my dad again. I didn't know why and I couldn't figure it out, or stop. Why couldn't I get control? I murdered my father. I murdered our son, and I hurt you over and over and fucking over and I couldn't stop."

He covers his face with his hands and I'm dumbfounded. I'm so confused.

"When you left to find your dad? Right before I got caught by the hunters?"

"Yes! That was the last time I could control myself until I woke up at the Elder's court and didn't remember any of that, or how I even got there!"

"Fergus, are you fucking with me again? Are you just playing another game? What are you doing?"

"Mallory, I swear to fucking Christ! I am telling you the truth!"

"I... I don't know. I couldn't tell before."

"Then, kill me! Please!"

"What? No!"

"Please, Mallory! All of the things that I've done. Please, kill me. I can't do this."

He sobs harder than I've ever seen anyone sob and I'm beginning to believe him. If he's lying again, he really is the world's greatest actor. He would deserve a fucking Oscar for this performance.

"Please. Fucking kill me, Mallory. Please."

Since before I got caught? Grimes said he was lying long before that and blackmailing him.

"Grimes told me that you were lying from the beginning and that you blackmailed him into working for you by threatening to kill his human sister."

He looks up with a look of utter confusion. He's still crying.

"What the fuck are you talking about? I didn't even know Grimes had any family alive. I only remember threatening him to keep quiet about killing my father."