My Other Half✔️

Chapter 24

It came on a Thursday, I was watching tv after just coming from school and my phone ranged. It read Julie so I answered.

"Hello?" I heard her and she sounded as if she just cried.

"Hi."

"I have to tell you something and it's very emotional. I don't know if this is better said in person. " she said but I was getting anouxius unouxious and Louis is away until Saturday noon and I doubt mom would want to take me there. 

"Just tell me Julie. Its okay. "

"Clarisse passed away a few hours ago." And as she said that tears came falling.

"No! This can't be happening, the doctors had to have done something."

"It was inevitable. She died of a heart attack." she sounded broken too but I was twice more than her.

Clarisse was more than a friend to me and to think I will never talk to her again.

"Okay. Goodbye Julie." I said and hanged up since I knew I couldn't talk with anyone right now.

Mom saw me an hour later still crying and in the sofa. She hurried to were I was and hugged me and asked what was wrong. I somewhat told her what happened but then I was silent. I might have stopped crying after sometime and Allie came too. She had brought some of my favorite snacks which I neglected I wasn't feeling anything more less hungry. The sadness and heartbreak I was feeling were winning over any other emotion.

Allie was the whole night with me even thought I didn't say much to her. I couldn't find anything to talk about and she was okay with it anyway. And Dad even called me which I answered and let him talk the whole time. He told me it was going to be okay that I was a strong girl and that I have to know that she is in a better place now and that he knew she was looking over me from up there since I was such a wonderful girl. It kind of made me cry more but in a good way.

Next day was Friday but I wasn't going to go to school and mom knew since she left a note which said that she was leaving for work and I should rest for as much as I could. That day I might have eaten breakfast or maybe not. But I was sure about the fact I didn't take a shower that day.

When mom got back she cooked me lunch and we sat silently at the table.

I never thought this will happen so soon, she looked fine to me. What is going to happen to Clarisse's husband? I should call him to see how he is doing, but it might be some other time when I could make a whole sentence without falling apart.

Clarisse had been a best friend a mother a grandmother a person I could talk about anything and she always listened. She was the confident of all my emotions, about Louis about Allie about my parents. I just want right now to go to Gleenbrooke and hug her asked about her day and she will ask about mine. We will laugh about anything and life will be perfect. But I knew that wasn't going to happen.

"Honey, this will go away some time. I just don't want to see you like this. What will make this better?" She asked knowing she will get no answer but she hugged me anyways and clean my tears.

I do know what will make this a bit better and it was him. Louis knew Clarisse and it will make me feel as if I wasn't alone in this. I just really need him right now. But he wasn't here he will be tomorrow but not now.

After that I went upstairs and I was strong enough to hold my tears for what was left of today.

The next day I went downstairs wanting something to eat at around 12:30 and I got a bowl of cereal. As I was finishing it someone knocked at the door. I opened it and jump to his arms. It was him! He finally was here.

"Well hello. Why are you like this?" He asks taking my face to take a look at it and after looking at my dead face his face turned to an alerted one and he fired me with questions.

I started to cry, he had asked too many questions and I wasn't ready for it. And thats when mom came running down and saw Louis. She told him what happened, I looked up at him and saw his face that was pale now and he then looked at me. I cried then and I saw a few tears fall from his face.

He then took both of us to the sofa were I clenched myself to him and cried until I couldn't anymore.

"Are you ready to tell me what happened?" Louis asked after some minutes had passed since I stopped crying. I nodded and told him everything.

He looked at me the whole time and caressed my hair.

"I am so sorry Hannah." He says and looks at me in the eyes then goes and kisses me.

"I needed you. Why were you not here??" I said getting angry.

"I was with the guys, they celebrated the birthday of one of them and they took us to a lake. I didn't know something like this was going to happen. I am really sorry. Please forgive me." He says and rubs my arms.

"Maybe." I say tired of crying and pushing everyone away. He tickles me which makes me laughs but then it hurts and he stops.

"How long have you been crying for Hannah?"

"Since Thursday, I skipped class on Friday. And cried all day." I said and he hugs me and gives me another kiss but at the top of my head.

"I should have been here." Yes is what I thought but never said it. I just wanted this to just be a bad dream.

The next few days were a blur and it was her funeral already. I was walking with Louis by my side I was wearing all black and I had prepare myself for this the days before but when I saw everyone I recognized there I almost lost it. Louis grabbed my hand.

I will always remember Clarisse, I was grateful that she got to see I was finally with Louis and we both were happy. I bet that made her happy. I was wishing she would be there in our wedding or when I had kids. Of course that might have been too much but I never imagined she will leave us this soon. I still had to go finish my community hours at Gleenbroke and I know it will be hard.

Clarisse had become such an important piece in my life. I was lucky I got to meet her and see how good of a person she was. I have learned that loosing someone special is a lesson in which you either learn from it or you cry because you don't seem to understand the lesson. Like a math lesson you either know the answer or cry because it is so hard and you don't get it.

Clarisse was an amazing human being and  I will always treat other with kindness because I know that's what she would want. I got the chance to throw a rose on top of the casquete before they buried it.

Afterwards Louis took me to get ice cream, it helped.

"It will be okay." He said as we finished our ice cream and where ready to leave.

"You know, if it weren't for her and Allie I don't think we would ever be together." I say remembering all the times she would tell me to get my man. That he is perfect for me.

"Good thing she did then." He says and grabs my hand. And I say yeah.