My Other Half✔️

Chapter 11

"Hannah are you okay?" Mom said entering my room. I just grunted and she got the message.

"You did drink yesterday right?" She asked as if that was my only problem.

"Yes mom, and I am sorry."

"Sweetheart its okay I mean it had to happen some day. And good thing it was when I could still care for you. I will go get water and some pills. And then you can come down to eat something."

"Thank you mom." I said and as she left I turned to look out the window at his room but it had his curtains down. I hate this, whatever it is that happened between us.

Later that day Allie called she asked how I was doing and also told me she and Liam might go on a date soon. She had said it and was about to say something about a double date and I even knew who she was thinking about but she stopped and didn't name him. But still it got me to start crying, I usually don't cry this much but since I haven't cry in a long time tears seemed to be endless.

"Hannah don't cry, I know things will get better. He does lov- I mean he does care about you, a lot actually, to let this be a problem." She said trying to make me stop crying. I hate myself for crying and for not being able to stop it.

"Do you want me to go to your house right now? I'll tell my brothers to give me a ride, I will be there in 10. " she said and then hang up.

She came with two hot chocolates from Starbucks and two brownies. I hug her. Then we went to my room and of course I had to turn to look out my window to his and it was still closed and no way to see him.

Monday came and it was the worst. I wish I could tell you a great story of how my first ever party went but it will just be a lie. I walked to my locker and wait for Allie and as we talk we knew we were waiting for Louis to come, which he never did.

Did I just ruin everything, I hope not.I had a class with him actually and he sat beside me. So I thought it was my chance to talk to him.

"Hey." I said loud enough that he could hear me. But he ignored me, so I tap his arm to try and get his attention. But someone called him and they were talking before class started. Then the teacher gave us a pop quiz, great just what I needed. In pop quiz no one can talk, so it just made it harder for me to do this.

"Louis?" I said in a soft voice when everyone had finished the pop quiz and we had free time.

"Can you leave me alone??" He asked which made me so sad I could even cry.

"Tell me why are you mad. I want to fix this for us."

"No you don't! You just want to fix this for you and only you. After all that's all you care about! You wanna know why I am mad?? I had told you Hannah before the party I told both you and Allie not to do what you literally did hours later! I just don't wanna talk with you anymore could you do that for me at least?" He said but many classmate heard him. The only thing I could do is go to my teacher and ask her to give me permission to go to the bathroom and try to keep my tears inside before getting to the bathroom.

As the class was about to finish I went back to the classroom although I didn't want to since I had puffy eyes and messy hair and just a mess completely. He saw me when I came back I know because I saw him too, but just for a second because he then turned around and talk to one of his friend.

Allie gave me a hug as I went back to my desk were I got ready for next period which was in a few minutes. And then Allie gave me another hug. I love her so much. I hope we never fight I don't know what will be of me after.

As I went to my next class I got to thinking since we had a substitute and we were not going to do work. Could it be I am this way because I love him as a friend or could it be just the idea of not talking to him not being with him or just the plain reason I was falling for him. I wish I knew but I guess it won't be any difference since he won't talk to me.

I just broke my promise and fall for this guy, and then ruined everything. I knew heartbreak was something happens but I never knew how bad it is.

After school I wanted to see dad I kind of feel safe with him with mom too but she was working and when I text dad he was actually home. So I took an uber to get to his apartment, he knew something was wrong since normally he was the one who picked me up at the house and we go to anywhere.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked but I said nothing fearing I will start crying.

"Is it about a boy? Tell me who he is and I'll make sure he doesn't even go near you no more." Which it made me laugh a little because dad was weak he never had liked any type of sport so he wasn't strong.

"It actually is all my fault dad."

"It can't be. It is no ones fault things happen and maybe is for the best."

Dad then took me to my favorite restaurant and took me home afterwards.

For the next few days I had started to get used to it. Having my mom take me to my community hours, not looking at his window since I knew it will disappoint me, not waiting for him at the locker, and him ignoring me in class.

How can things change so fast I wish it wouldn't but that's just how life is.

I went to my locker just as the day ended and saw Allie talking to Louis. It made me sad that he didn't ignore her like he did to me. I was about to turn around and just not go to my locker but Allie called my name and said to go over were they where. And just like I expected he left before I got even close to them.

"I am so sorry Hannah I don't know why I even did that. I just thought it could work, I am such an idiot."

"Allie you are good, don't worry about it I am used to it now." I said trying to smile.

Later when I was with Clarisse since today no one wanted to play just a few but they wanted to play with Louis leaving me alone with Clarisse.

"Is something wrong with the two of you?" She asks

"Me and Louis?"

"Yes yes."

"It is something actually. He doesn't want to talk to me and just ignores him.

"He is such an a**hole!" She said and I laughed I never thought Clarisse would ever use that word.

"Good good you are laughing. Not thanks to that stupid guy!"

"Clarisse! Don't! If someone is a stupid in here its me."

"No don't say that. You are a good girl and you are an intelligent person and I know you will do the right thing whatever that is. It will get better." She said I hugged her even though she never likes when people hug her although all of that she returned my hug.

"But talking about it actually, did you liked him? Is that why you are a mess right now."

"Oh thanks." I said sarcastically. "But... yes Clarisse but it was too late when I finally knew."

"But is never too late to tell him about it."

"Clarisse I don't want my heart to hurt any longer." I saw her scared face so I added. "Don't think I will do that okay? I will never, I know what you say."

What she said about suicide was that it wasn't fair for anyone for you to do it. She said there is people fighting from cancer just wanting to live a normal life and you being healthy and just cause you take your life away it isn't fair imagine how this people will give everything to have what you got, to live. It just always reminds me of how when I was a kid mom always made me finish whatever I was eating she said throwing away what you left over when there are kids dying from hunger. And you making this decision that food isn't something you should value.

"Okay, now I don't wanna be rude but I am so tired I am going to take a nap."

"Okay let me help you." I said and took her to her bedroom. "Hannah, my only advice right now is for you to have someone with you. I don't want you to die alone as funny it can sound but you have to have someone beside you okay? I want you to find someone you love and marry him someday. Okay?"

"Okay."