secrets

ch.8

Aizawa

  We finally made it home after leaving recovery girls office. The check up and quick kiss went better than expected I'm thinking it's because she's familiar. Izuku is asleep in the backseat looking more at peace than he has been since being rescued. Zashi parked the car in the garage and asked me if I wanted him to carry izuku inside for me. I look into his caring ruby red eyes and tell him that I can carry zuku so he can start setting up our kids new room.

  I open the back door, unbuckle him and carefully lift him up in my arms. One of my arms underneath his knees and the other on his back as I carry him into the house being mindful to not hit the kid's head on the door frame. I gently lay him down on our Brown slightly wore out couch. I carefully place one of our throw pillows under his head and cover him up with a black and yellow bird print blanket that was on the back of the couch. I knew he would be asleep for a few hours so I went down the hall to get changed out of my hero outfit. I pulled out a long sleeved black shirt with my favorite soft pink pj pants, after changing I went to izuku's new room to help zashi finish setting it up.
  I walk in to see almost everything done, the bed was made, the night light plugged in, the aromatherapy set up, so the only thing left is the noise monitor.

  "Remember doing this when Toshi first came to live with us?" Zashi asked me.

  "Ya, good thing you thought of the monitor or we wouldn't have heard him having nightmares. And this time were not stress researching ways to help. That was a stressful couple days." I tell him.

  "Me too he needed to feel safe after everything but was too afraid to ask for help. I have a feeling izuku will be the exact same. Plus this time around we have a bases of what to look for."

  "He is very stubborn I will give him that but that's not always a good thing. It could make his recovery longer and harder on him. It might take him a while but he will hopefully start coming to us when he's upset and not hiding it or bottling up his emotions till it explodes. Like I did." I say before sighing.

  I walk over to zashi who just finished setting everything up and hug him. I don't want to let him go and he notices so he wraps his arms around my waist. We sit down on the floor holding each other I put my head on his chest humming and try not to cry. I'm so overwhelmed I want to scream, cry, hit something, sleep and being held all at once. Zashi kisses the top of my head before moving my hair out of my face placing the strands behind my ear.

  "Ssshhh, he's safe now. It's okay he will be okay. I've got you. Just let it all out." He whispers to me and I start crying while he holds me close. We stayed like that for about 10 minutes till I was able to calm down. I knew my eyes were hurting from the hot tears that's why I don't cry often. I still get overwhelmed and have a few bad coping methods but with Zashi's and oboro's help I have stopped. They help me now when I can't take the stress and helps me cope and I just hope one day my son's will have someone like I have I hope they find their soulmates.
  I look at the time on my phone and it reads 6:03 p.m. damn it I should have already started dinner. I sigh for what feels like the 100th time in the past 24 hours before standing up and walking to the kitchen. I would never admit it but my home screen on my phone is of my class, class 1-A and I love my problem children but will never admit it. I would rather die than admit to caring for any of my hell class. The little demons. My lock screen is Toshi, oboro, zashi and me. that picture brightens my day even if I don't show it. I know izuku needs to eat and eating is hard right now so I decided to make homemade soup. I grabbed everything from the kitchen thankfully we had leftover vegetables from yesterday's lunch.

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  We sit down at the kitchen table to eat but we didn't wake him because he needed the rest after visiting recovery girl. We ate and talked about who would be staying with him and when till he was ready to go back to class. Nezu gave him the rest of the week to recover and one of us would be staying with him at all times. I was almost done eating when I zoned out thinking.