𝑇𝐻𝑈𝐺𝑆 𝑀𝑂𝑇𝐼𝑉𝐴𝑇𝐼𝑂𝑁

𝟙𝟛

|miami,fl- 3:45 pm|

𝗷𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗮 𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗲𝗹𝘀

school was now out and summer had started

it's been 2 weeks since jayceon died and jakia just been acting out she's always out late and when she comes back home she's either drunk or high sometimes both

she's no longer with travis he broke up with her because she's with a different guy every week and it's getting out of hand but i mean ion blame him i would have too

i've applied for college and got a new job as a cashier at a hair salon

i had got jakia a job there but after a few days she just stopped coming with me she wouldn't wake up in the morning since she had been out all night

i had just got back from work and i saw a boy leaving out of the house

i shook my head walking inside the house going upstairs to jakia room

"jakia i know you taking this hard-" ii was saying

"don't you think .. janae my twin brother died and the day before he died i told him i hated him and we still hadn't talked so that was really my last words to him he died thinking he hated me and that shit is eating me alive" she said getting up going in her bathroom

"okay so for what don't cut me off and for two you saying that shit like it's my fault now like i was say i know you hurting but the way your dealing with it is right and you know it's not i  didn't teach you like this dawg" i said

"janae get out ion really wanna hear it to be honest" jakia said

"you so damn selfish you acting like you the only one that lost somebody yo dumb ass the one that went there in the first place he came to save yo ass the bullet should've hit yo ass instead" janae said walking out the room slamming the door behind her

what janae had said hurt jakia to the core she knew it was her fault but she never wanted to except it

i went into the bathroom hopping in the shower

𝗷𝗮𝗸𝗶𝗮 𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗿𝗲𝗮 𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗲𝗹𝘀

i was so hurt i went into the bathroom locking the door then looking under the sink finding a razor then i took the blade out

then a memory of when i was 14 i used to cut myself because i got joked on about my clothes

flashback:

i was standing outside by my locker waiting for jayceon to come out of the bathroom

"look at her clothes ew" the little girls said to me before smacking her books out of  my hands

i went down to pick em up and one of them steeped on my finger making me wince in pain

"shit janae you good" jayceon asked me running from out the bathroom seeing me on the floor crying while picking up my books

"yea im fine" i said getting up

"it's them same girls from last time" jay asked me as i nodded

"im telling nae" he said to me as we walked outside waiting for bae to come get us

"no jay please don't tell her" i begged him as nae pulled up