𝑇𝐻𝑈𝐺𝑆 𝑀𝑂𝑇𝐼𝑉𝐴𝑇𝐼𝑂𝑁

𝟙𝟝

|miami fl - 3:45|

𝗷𝗮𝗸𝗶𝗮 𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗿𝗲𝗮 𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗲𝗹𝘀

i was laying in bed with this boy i had meet last week we was chilling then there was a knock at the door

i thought it was janae then i remembered she had a key so i went downstairs and opened the door seeing it was the older guy i meet like a month ago maybe

"hey babygirl" he said

shit i thought

"heyy" i said to him

"let's go up to you room" he said headed towards the steps

"no no noo" i said blocking the stairs

"man janae move stop playing he said grabbing my arm

"ouch" i said grabbing my arm as he walked upstairs and i ran after him grabbing his shirt

"man jakia get off what's yo problem" he asked

"nothing but youn wanna go downstairs" i said chuckling

"no i wanna lay down" he said

"we can lay down downstairs" i said

"move" he said pushing me to the side going inside my room

"jakiaa" tyron the older one called me out

"yess" i asked scared

"who is this" he asked

"huh" i asked him

"don't play with me janae" he said as i saw  josh moving around heading out the door

" that was josh" i said looking away

"so you messing with other niggas now" tyron asked me choking me

"ty- tyron i c- can't breathh" i said as i felt myself being lifted off the ground

"so you just laying around with any nigga now" he asked dropping me down on my ass as i crawled over into a corner

"no tyron damn" i said coughing

"you're such a disappointment you brother and yo pops probably having a fit in his grave right now .. now i understand why yo sister wished it was you that the bullet hit you .. you fucking slut you disgust me bro nasty ass jit now i gotta go make sure ian got no disease" tyron said before leaving out

𝗮𝘂𝘁𝗵𝗼𝗿𝘀 𝗽𝗼𝘃

tyrons words had really hurt jakia especially when he said that about her brother and because she told him all of that because she needed to vent just for him to throw it right back in her face when he got

"UGHHHH" jakia said flipping over her bed

"I HATE YOU" jakia said punching her mirror talking to myself

"AHHHHH" jakia screamed pulling her dresser draws out

"WHY MEEE GOD UGH" jakia yelled sitting in a corner crying her eyes out

jakia felt as if she went through so much shit and that nobody was there for her

jakia had never been so down bad in life ever

jakia got up crying looking at the mirror glass that was broken into peice she picked a peice of glass out before going into the bathroom running some water in the tub

she sat in the tub crying about how horrible her life was

"this is for being a disappointment" she said cutting her arm

"for being a slut" she said cutting her arm again

"for that bullet not hitting me" she said cutting herself again

"for jayceon" she said cutting her self

"for my daddy" she said cutting herself again

she just kept cutting her arm for a bunch of different reason

"for being ready to see my brother and my daddy" she said cutting her arm

this time she had cut it so deep that it her he vein causing her to become light headed

she passed out in the tub as her arm hit the water making the blood dye the water

|miami fl - 4:15|

𝗷𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗮 𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗲𝗹𝘀

i was just now getting back home from staying the night over kaceions

i went inside the house sitting the food and my phone on the counter downstairs

i went upstairs looking for jakia cause i had bought her some food and i wanted to apologize about what i had said to her

"JAKIAA" i yelled through the house walking into her room

"what. the. fuck." i said looking around seeing that her room was destroyed

"jakia" i said looking around her room for her

"bro jakia where tf are you" i mumbled to myself  before looking over at the bathroom seeing the light on

"jakia" i said twisting the door knob

what i saw would probably traumatize me forever

"fuck jakia" i said seeing her laying down in the tub full of blood

"where tf is all the blood coming from" i said looking at her body before picking up her arm seeing a bunch of cuts

"oh shit" i said before running downstairs busting my ass on the way down there

i got downstairs grabbing my phone calling 911 while running back upstairs

"911 what's your emergency" the lady on the phone said

"yea wassup i just came home and found my little in a tub full of blood passed out with cuts on her arm" i said

"okay ma'am what's your address" the lady asked

blah blah blah

"okay the ambulance is on the way" she said as i hung up in deep thought

i could not lose another sibling i thought it hasn't even been 2 months since jay died

"OMG JAKIA GET UPP" i said looking at her lifeless body laying in the tub

"mann you could've came to me jakia" i whispered to her crying

"god please pull my lil sister through this" i said more to myself

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ughh i feel soo bad for jakia my baby really going through it 😩 .

any book suggestions 😭?