To All The Girls I've Loved Before - Jenlisa

Chapter 14

She woke up disoriented and alone. Her windows were dark; her bedside digital alarm clock glowing in bold numbers: 2:05 am.

Lisa took a moment to gather her thoughts. Surely what happened between her and Jen wasn't just a dream, was it?

No, she was sure she could still smell the brunette's scent on her sheets. She found her underwear and slipped it on along with a flannel that ran till her thighs. She carefully opened her door and winced, letting her eyes adjust to the meagre light of the common room.

"Jen?" Lisa tensely whispered in the dark. For a moment she was worried that the brunette left her, regretting their tryst. After her eyes adjusted in the shadows she found a figure sitting on the floor in front of the window, contemplating at the view of New York's busy nothingness. She's bundled up in Lisa's sweatshirt that she probably found amongst the other clothes they haphazardly removed and were currently strewn around the apartment.

Lisa settled herself quietly beside her. She found a tall can of beer in front of the brunette, possibly swiped from her beer stack in the chiller.

"May I?" Lisa gingerly pointed at the can. Jen nodded, observing her as the blonde took it to her lips to take a swig.

They both continued to silently observe the view in front of them in the dark.

"I don't think I have ever seen this view at 2am," Lisa broke the silence, trying to start small talk. Her place over at East Broadway may not be as swanky as Jen's neighbourhood in Morningside Heights, but she loved it for its personality. In the morning she can walk around the small parks and enjoy taking photos of the local shops around the vicinity before she disappears to the subway towards Tisch. She also loves that her place was just 10 minutes away from Bowery Ballroom, which hosts quite a lot of good bands on weekends.

Of course, these would have been really good perks if she ACTUALLY spent time in her apartment. Because she didn't. Most of her time was spent sleeping over at Jen's apartment if not walking around and memorising the shops all over Morningside so that she can get Jen a good breakfast before she leaves for her morning classes at Tisch.

Kind of explains of course why Lisa has never seen her neighbourhood's view before at 2am.

A small smirk crept through Lisa's face as she tried not to laugh at the thoughts in her head, but immediately righted herself when she realised the strain that's starting to rise between them.

Jen stubbornly remained silent. Lisa awkwardly offered the beer back but the brunette just softly shook her head.

"Where did you stay?" Lisa tried again as she swirled the beer can a little. " The whole weekend. I couldn't find you anywhere."

Lisa looked towards Jen to assess her a bit but the latter kept staring outside, refusing to react at all. The Thai retreated her gaze when she noticed that the girl's only in her underwear and probably nothing else under the sweatshirt, and right now she didn't want to be reminded of what happened this afternoon.

Not right now when her heart's still a little bruised.

So maybe Lisa couldn't help herself when she suddenly hissed, "I wish you at least told me you were okay. I worried so much about you," because her heart was trying not to give way, but it has been so heavy the past few days. Lisa didn't apprehend how huge NYC was until she realised she couldn't figure out where her best friend holed up in trying to avoid her. She hated it, not being able to find her when she thought she knew Jen very well.