Open Wound//A Demi Lovato Fanfic

Eggs and Numbers

I woke up to the wonderful smell of bacon and eggs, which most people would be excited about, just not me.

My plan was to just stay in bed until Demi came up and see what happens after that. But I got really bored. So I put my hair into a messy bun and came down and stood in the doorway of the kitchen almost puking by the smell of all the food and how much there was.

"Morning baby girl, I was wondering when you would wake up." Demi smiled at me putting a plate down. "Well here I am." "Come on sit down with us." Nick smiled waving his hand to come over. I reluctantly walked over to the table taking a seat next to Nick which already had a plate in front of it. "Want some eggs?" Nick asked still chewing his. "Umm...-" "Hey uh Aria, can I talk to you for a second?" "Sure." I said almost running to the living room.

"Aria, you can do this." "No, no I can't. I can't mom I can't." Demi paused and looked at me, her facial expression changing. "M-mom, you called me mom?" An embarrased smile grew on face but then Demi wrapped her arms around me and said "Ive been waiting for that. I love you Aria." I smiled but then I remembered there was food to be eaten.

"A little bit of scrambled eggs and two pieces of bacon." "I cant eat this Dem-uh mom, sorry just gotta get used to it. I cant eat it, mom."

"Stop Aria, your phycing yourself out. I have the perfect idea, since we didnt weigh you yesterday, lets do it today, its the perfect time to show you how tiny you really are, come on." She grabbed my arm and brought me into the bathroom and pulled out a scale. My eyes widened, I hate scales. No no no I cant.

"Get on" Demi said. "D-Demi no, I-I cant" I said staring at the scale. Demi brought my face to hers so I was looking at her eyes, "Aria get on it. We need to know the truth, now. This scale wont hurt you, Im right here." I nodded nervously and my breathing got uneasy and I started shaking, most people dont have panic attacks over scales, why do I have to? "Demi no, no i cant. Please dont make me." I said. I felt like I was gunna faint and my heart was racing when Demi wrapped her arms around and we both sat on the floor, me in her lap and she hugged me close and whispered "Shhhh baby girl, shhh, copy my breathing, calm down its ok."

She rocked me back and forth and eventually my breathing went back to normal. I didnt realize I was crying until I felt the stickiness on my cheeks. "I can do this Demi, I have to, mom." I said standing up. I took a deep breath and stood on the scale. The numbers raced through my head, 99, 100, 150. But when i looked down, I saw a 67.

I looked at Demi, she was sad but she was trying to hide it, I could tell. "Aria, you see that number, do you think other 13 year olds weigh 61
pounds?" I was silent. She was right, other girls like me aren't like this. I don't even understsnd why I'm doing this to myself. I looked in the mirror, all my bones popped out, I looked like a skeleton. I played with my hands keeping my eyes on them while. Tear rolled down my cheek. "I'm sorry mom." "Will you eat now? Or at least try?" I nodded. "I guess so....can I just be alone for a bit....I need to uh...think." "Sure, i'll be at the table baby girl."

She nodded and walked out. I shut and locked the door and searched the room for a release, a blade. I opened the closet and found Nicks razor and a box of bandaids. I smashed the razor to the floor hoping no one would hear and grabbed the blade pushing my sleeve up. I wasted no time slicing open my skin again and again and feeling that amazing release.

I sat on the floor leaning against the wall. There was blood all over my wrist. I took a towel and cleaned up my arm and put bandaids over the cuts as best I could. I grabbed the plastic razor pieces, blade and bloody towel and ran upstairs and hid it all under my mattress and ran downstairs acting like I had just come from the bathroom.

"Hey I was just going to go check up on you, you alright?" Demi asked. "Yep im fine." I looked at Nick who was looking at me. "Sit down" He said with a warm smile. I walked around the table and took a seat next to him. "Aria its ok, you have nothing to worry about. Me and your mom will be here every step of the way and we can help you get through this. Do you think you could try some food for me?" I bit my lip and nodded. Nick smiled and put some scrambled eggs and bacon on my plate. I took a deap breath and ate some bacon and a peice of scrambled eggs off my fork. "Keep going baby girl." Demi said softley but encouragingly. I closed my eyes and took more eggs off my fork. Eventually there was just a small piece of bacon left and Demi and Nick agreed I had done good enough. "Im proud of you baby girl." Demi said. "Me too." Said Nick. "I love you guys." I said hugging them.

"Lets go in the living room and get to know eachother better." Nick said. "Umm ok sure." I said "Ya lets do it!" Demi said and we walked into the living room. I plopped my self on the couch next to Demi rested my head on her shoulder getting comfy while Nick sat on a chair near us. "Ok so now what?" Asked Demi. "We take turns asking questions, anything! Me and Demi ask Aria and Aria you ask either me or Demi when its your turn" "Ok." I said and Demi nodded. "Ill go first" Nick said, "Aria, who is your hero, your biggest inspiration?" I looked up at Demi with a huge smile remembering the day she came to that hell house I used to live in. "Im sitting right next to her." I said. "Aaaaw!" Demi squeeled and hugged me. I giggled, "Your my everything Demi-uh mom..." She smiled "Alright my turn now right?Okkkk umm if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be!?" She asked. "Umm Disney World duh!" I said. "Just kidding, probley California or Texas." "Cause of me?" Demi asked. "Wellllll ya." I said. We laughed and then it was my turn. "Well I already know everything about Demi, but ive always wanted to know, what are your biggest fears!?" I asked. "SPIDERS!" She said and we bursted out laughing. "Seriously they are very scary guys. "Ok ok." I said as the laughter began dying down. "You now" "Aria, what would you change about yourself if you could?" Nick asked. I looked down at my lap. "M-my weight." I said. "Would you weigh more or less?" He asked. "I dont know...the demons say less but my brain says more and i dont really know which to follow" I said still staring at my lap.