Put Me First

Chapter 1

Lauren

"Rashaud, I can't keep going through this with you! It's either me or Rachel! Im not sharing you to that white girl anymore!!" He tries to hug me but I backed away

"You told me you love me and you only want me .. why is this so hard for you to leave her for me?" The tears start coming down my face. He's the only man who I ever loved and I wasn't trying to let him go.

"I do love you Lauren but it's harder because she has my son now .. She's making it more difficult and I want to see my son everyday yo. If you can't deal with this why you continue to fuck with me man?"

"Don't act like this is my fault, your the one who didn't tell me you was in a relationship with her. Now I caught feelings and I don't want to let you go but I just might have to .." I start to walk away to go home but he grabbed me.

"Your not leaving me." He picked me up and layed me on the bed and start kissing me on my neck.

"Rashaud .. Stop." Moaning his name as he took off my shorts and underwear. He does this to me all the time but good head is not always going to work.

He knows I love him and I can't leave him. I was suppose to be the mother of his kids .. not her. I was suppose to be the only girl fucking him, not the both of us. I can't even meet his son because Rachel hates me and don't want me around him. I mean who could blame her .. Im screwing her baby dads brains out every chance I get and not trying to leave him alone. I know he loves me but no woman deserves to go through this but I can't leave him alone but I do deserve better than this. I know he loves me .. We been messing around for almost five years but she has his son and he loves his child .. who can compete with that?

I watched him wipe up my mess off his face and he stares at me and smiles. Oh god, who could leave his fine ass! He's so perfect to me, why does he have to be an ass?

"I will tell her, Don't leave me baby girl. I love you Lauren!" He kissed me and put his hands through my hair.

"I love you to, Rashaud."

Rashaud

I put covers over Lauren while she falls asleep before I leave. She's so beautiful and she's down for a nigga. All she want to do is be with me and I can't even give her that since I have my son and Rachel. Rachel is down for me to and she loves me! Most importantly she has my son who means the world to me. It's hard to let that go for Lauren. If Rachel didn't have my son, I would be with Lauren. There's just something about her that I can't get enough of and im not trying to let her go!

"Why the fuck did you changed the locks on me man?" Rachel on that bullshit again. When she suspects that im with Lauren she's tripping!

"Obv. that bitch is way more important than my son!"

"OUR SON, now get out my way so I could see junior"

I moved passed her so I could see my son and he's just playing with his toys. He looks like a caramel skin me, just with grey eyes who he got from Rachel.

I picked him up so Rachel wouldn't bitch at me that much since I'm holding our son.

"What do you see in her? Why do you keep messing with her? I was here before her, she doesn't deserve you!" Rachel said with tears falling from her eyes. I made the two of them cry today. I don't know what to do forreal.

"Can we talk about this later?" I don't want my son hearing this bullshit. It's bad enough he has a dawg for a father!

"No we can't Rashaud!! Your so disrespectful! You fuck her then you come over here, playing house with her smell on you! I hate you!" She gets up pacing around the room. It's funny to me honestly.

"Stop laughing at me! take me seriously"

I put junior down and put my arms around her.

" I do take you serious, Rachel. You have my son and nobody change that or take your place."

She kisses me and smiles. I do love Rachel but then there's my baby Lauren.