Put Me First

Chapter 5

Lauren

I hate sleeping alone. I barley can sleep without being next to Rashaud. He always wake me up doing cute stuff. I know he's stress about junior but leaving his pregnant girlfriend by herself is getting ridiculous. Im 18 weeks now and I'm starting to show! who can be excited when your child's father don't even pay attention anymore .. I don't know how to talk to him about it without being selfish. Someone is knocking on my door, who would be at my door this early?

"ASHLEY!." I hugged my best friend. She was away with her new boyfriend. She deserves happiness, she's such a great person and he's a great guy! He's from New York. Out of town niggas are always the best to fuck with. she's going to be surprise at my news.

"Hey sister! damn your getting a little chunky in the face." She said laughing but it wasn't funny to me. Im very sensitive about my weight now. I can't even work out because I'm a high risk. I like being thick but I'm not feeling getting fat.

"Don't say that and besides its a reason why I'm getting chunky."

She takes a good look at me and her eyes got big.

"Bitch, don't tell me your pregnant?" She was about to cry and shit. She's so goofy and dramatic.

"Yes hoe! Im 18 weeks today actually! That's why I'm sensitive about my weight bitch."

"OMG im so happy! I hate him but your carrying my god daughter." She hugs me and rubs my growing stomach. Now people could tell that I'm pregnant. I can't hide it anymore. Maternity clothes here I come!

"Thank you! I hope it's a girl to but as long as my baby is healthy, i don't care! But we have so much to talk about! Rashaud finally left that white bitch ALONE. I got my man now all to myself." I said sitting down next to Ashely.

"Congratulations I guess." Ashely says drinking her coffee.

"Don't be like that you know how I -" she cuts me off

"Yes Lauren. I know how you feel about him and that's what scares me! Your losing yourself. Did you just hear yourself right now? Do you honestly think he's going to stop messing with her? I know that he loves you but .. Rachel been there first."

I don't want to hear that bullshit. I know Rashaud stop messing with her. He's always around me! When he's not around, he's either at work or looking for his son. He loves me too much to mess up things with us again. If he wanted her, he would left my ass alone. Period.

"Ashely, Rashaud loves me. If he wanted to be with her, he would of been with her and left me ALONE."

"Where is he at now?"

"Looking for his son. Rachel left town with his son. He's been stressed out since he can't find him. She's weird as hell. She's only doing this because he doesn't want to be with her. She's a selfish human being!"

Ashely just shock her head at me. She can't stand my boyfriend and that's cool but I just wish she understands that he's going to be around regardless! Rashaud comes in the door and gives Ashely a stank look. I hate how my best friend and my man hate eachother.

"Hi baby girl." He gives me and our child a kiss.

"Hi Rashaud, boy don't be rude!" Ashely said being smart. Here we go!
I hate to say that Ashely always starting shit first.

"Who the fuck are you calling a boy, stupid ass bitch! Don't come in my house disrespecting me!"

"CAN YALL BOTH STOP !! You don't have to like him but you will respect him! And Rashaud don't talk to my only best friend like that." I said trying to make peace. These are the loves of my life. I can't have them like this. It hurts my feelings.