Put Me First

Chapter 6

Lauren

I haven't been in this apartment in years and it still looks the same. I have to stay here until Rashaud get his shit together. I can't afford losing another baby with stress. I was beginning to pack my clothes until someone was knocking on my door.

"How did you find me?" Rashaud was just standing there looking pitiful.

"There's not a lot of places where you would go to, can we talk?"

I stepped aside to let him in. I just want to see what this nigga has to say but my mind is pretty much made up.

"I didn't mean to make you feel like that last night. I just have a lot going on and im frustrated."

"You didnt have no right to talk to talk to me like I'm shit. Look Rashaud, I don't accept your apology. It's way too much for me and MY child. I have to do what's best for me and staying here for a while might be the answer for now. So if you excuse me, I have to unpack my clothes."

I love him with everything but I have to love him from a distance. He's stressing me out!

"Well can I at least stay the night?" He asked with puppy eyes. I would in the mean time but not now.

"No not tonight. Im fine. Thank you." I said turning my head.

"You know how many females would die to have your position right now? Me begging you to come home? You need to be more grateful."

Why do he think he can talk to me like this? He needs to go like NOW.

"It's time for you to go NOW." I said pushing him but he grabbed my arms.

"Stop fucking rushing me, I'm not done talking to you!!" Instead of him trying to control my hands he ended up pushing me hard on the ground.

"Omg my baby!!" I wasn't bleeding but I landed on my child.

"im so sorry baby girl!! Let me help you -!"

"NO. Don't touch me, just take me to the hospital."

Hospital

"The baby is fine but you need to be more careful, Lauren. This little fall could of did damage." He said while taking his gloves off.

"I know I am sorry!" I said upset but thankful.

"Your not allowed to be stress anymore which includes arguing." He said eying Rashaud. Im so over him it's crazy right now. Not only he put me in harm but my child. If he would just gave me some space, this would of never had happened.

Rashaud made an dramatic exit but I don't care at the moment.

"Since your here, you want to know what your having?" The doctor smiling.

"Yes!!" I was so excited. I hope it's a girl. A girl who looks just like me. Brown skin, bright brown eyes, and curly hair just like me!

The doctor kept looking on the screen and moving this thing around my stomach. This is my first child so I don't know everything about what they do. I only know it's good to check on my child.

"It's a girl, Lauren! See .. you can tell by looking at her private area. He said pointing. It looks like she was sleep how her hands was on the side of her face! it made my heart melt.

"Aw she's so cute! I can't wait to meet my baby girl."

"As long as your not stress, you will be full term. I don't want you having sex anymore." Before that would of killed me but I wasn't planning on fucking Rashaud right now anyway, so I don't care.