BTS ONE SHOTS [CLOSED]

I Promise

Characters: Jungkook, Ruth (O/C)

drip

drop

I watch the pretty dark red that flowed from my wrists to my hands, covering parts of my fingers with lines of red, coating my nails with blood. I breathed in the air that smelt of  soap and shampoo as I lay on the tub, my hand extended out.  Every drop, every splatter, my life seems to go with it. I tighten the grip on the blade with my other hand and let go immediately as soon as I felt the sharp pain on my fingers, staining the metal blade with more blood.

The tears that I thought would come didn't. I lay silent. Watching my life drain through the beautiful slit I made.

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A week earlier

"Hello?" I answered the phone immediately as soon as I saw that it was Jungkook. "What's up?"

"Ruth?" I heard Jungkook say. His voice sounded unsure, he sounded stressed and hurt.

"Why? What's wrong?" I asked. His calls to me lessened each day. Every time, he sounds tired, stressed. It's been a month since we started going out. A week when his fans found out. 

We managed to keep it a secret for a month now but one date night out blew our cover. It was like any normal date. Jungkook's manager would pick me up and drive me to their company and I would go to their practice room where Jungkook would be waiting for me. I would wear a cap and a huge jacket to hide my identity while the two of us snuck inside the van to go to somewhere private.

It's not that we were too careless. We were the opposite of that. The media was just doing their job and that night must have been their lucky day when one of them took a photo of us. Of course the company had to confirm it, and it was eventually released to the public. After that? I don't know. Jungkook's the one who's been taking all the questions and feedback. He made me promise not to look online, I promised him. So I stayed silent, unaware of what's happening.

"I'll visit you tonight...wait for me okay?....I love you" He ended the call, not giving me the chance to answer back.

An hour has passed when I heard someone rang the doorbell. I walked to the door and looked to see who it was. After seeing Jungkook smile, I let him in and closed the door behind him. I was locking the door when I felt his arms wrap around my waist and his head rest on my shoulder. I turned around to face him after I locked the door. "Why? Is there something wrong? You didn't answer me awhile ago on the phone when I asked you."

His face that used to make my heart beat like crazy, made my heart break instead. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he gently held my face. "Jungkook..."

"I...I'm sorry....Ruth I love you, I really do, but....I have no choice" he sobbed. He hugged me tight and cried on my shoulder, I can't help but to tear up as well. What the hell is going on?!

"What are you talking about?"

"I- I don't want you to get hurt to-to get hurt because of me..."

"Jeon Jungkook you're not making any sense right now!" Both of us were just crying at this point.

"We can't see each other anymore"

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"Where have you been?" Kim Namjoon walked to their maknae with concern. He's seen Jungkook tried and stressed before but his state today seemed a bit off, the puffy eyes were a give away too. "What happened to you?" 

Jungkook looked up. Making Namjoon see them maknae's swollen and redish eyes. "I...I broke up with her hyung" he said as he hid his face between his knees.

"You what?" Namjoon looked at Jungkook with shock. "Jungkook don't tell me you actually did" Jungkook gave a weak nod, making the leader frustrated, 

"Listen Jungkook...why did you go out with her in the first place?" 

Jungkook sat up straight and looked at his hyung "Because....because She needed me and I needed her"

"Exactly...now...WHY ON EARTH DID YOU BREAK UP WITH HER?!"

"I had to choice! If I stayed with her then the fans might...they might attack her! Hyung, you've seen those comment yourself! They're threatening her!" 

"Jungkook, those aren't fans...those aren't OUR fans...Our fans would support us...is threatening one of the member's girlfriend support?"

"But still..."

"No Jungkook...You get your ass out of this place and go to her....Jungkook..." Namjoon held the maknae's shoulders, looking into his eyes. "You don't break up with a suicidal person...She needs you, you said so yourself."

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I sat still, infront of my laptop. The weak glow from its screen the only light. I've read them. I've read all the articles, all the comments. My inbox is full too. I smiled at the support and got hurt with the hate. All of these, Jungkook kept to himself. He didn't let a single drop of this chaos get to me, he was just taking it all on himself.

I realized...

I made him hurt. I'm the reason for his stress, the reason for his broken heart. 

I don't deserve...his love.

Being alive is too good...I don't deserve this...I don't.

drip

drop

I watch the pretty dark red color that flowed from my wrists to my hands, covering parts of my fingers with lines of red, coating my nails with blood. I breathed in the air that smelt of  soap and shampoo as I lay on the tub, my hand extended out.  Every drop, every splatter, my life seems to go with it. I tighten the grip on the blade with my other hand and let go immediately as soon as I felt the sharp pain on my fingers, staining the metal blade with more blood.

The tears that I thought would come didn't. I lay silent. Watching my life drain through the beautiful slit I made. I closed my eyes....for the last time.

"RUTH?!"

My eyelids flew open, responding to the painfully familiar voice. "J..jungkook"

The door flew open revealing Jungkook. His face filled with worry, concern and fear. He turned pale as soon as he saw me. My wrist still bleeding.

"R-ruth..." He slowly knelt down by my side, blood soaking his knees, gently holding my wrist, tears forming and falling on his cheeks. 

"Why are you h-here?" I whispered. The blood loss made me weak. He stayed silent as he got his phone out.

"Yes? Hello? I need someone here quick" Jungkook quickly said. He also said my complete address before placing the phone back in his pocket. "I called the ambulance..." he reached in his pocket and pulled out a handkerchief. He tied it around my wrist tightly. I just watched as he did this, not saying a single word. I looked into his eyes as he looked into mine. He placed his palm on my cheek, gently holding my face. "I will never leave you...Ruth, I promise you...Now promise me you won't leave me"  

"I promise" He gently picked me up and went out of the bathroom to lay me on the couch. He had his arms around me as I rested my head on his chest. 

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Wow this one shot's long....that's what you guys get when you ask me to write a sad story hahahaha. (What? I enjoy sadness hahaha)

Anyway....this oneshot was requested by iwannabeanon. I hope it wasn't too sad hahahaha, I hope you liked it~

-buttercarrots

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