Little Things

Chapter 17: Don't Look At Me

JAY'S POV

"There you guys are! We've been looking all over for you! Seems like you guys have made up huh?"

"Course Niall! Who could stay away from this beauty?!"Louis answered as he gave me a peck on the cheek.

I pried myself out from his grip and excused myself.

I made my way through the swarms of people to the bar.

"Sex on the beach please!"

"Why don't you just tell him?"

"There's nothing to tell"

"You love me and there's no denying"

"Snap out of it! I don't. Period"

"If you didn't, you wouldn't have kissed me"

"Thank you" I handed the bartender the money and took my drink.

"What do you want Harry?"

"Why are you trying to convince yourself that it isn't really when it really is? When are you going to do something for your own happiness instead of others? Before you start pleasing the whole world, ensure that you're happy because not everyone is going to be happy with what you do"

"Then what Harry? You want me to break up with Lou and be with you? Why? So that you can leave me once again? Is that it?" I snapped.

"I've changed. It's all different now. We can be a happy family." Harry said sincerely.

I'm stuck in a crossroad right now. What am I gonna do?

Choose my happiness or Louis?

"I just.... I need time"

"Just remember that I've changed and I will make you and Jai happy. That's my promise to you" he pushed himself up and off the chair and made his way back to the rest.

Why does it have to be so complicated?!

Fine. I admit it. I do love Harry. I've always did. I've just been lying to myself and convincing my heart that he isn't the one but I still keep falling for him. Time and time again.

I walked back to the booth where only Liam and Harry were sat.

"Hey, I'm just going back to the bus. I'm knackered"

"I'll come with you!" Liam offered.

"No. It's fine...I'll be ok. Just... Enjoy yourself" I flashed Liam a small and glanced at Harry before leaving the club.

The techno music was really giving me a massive headache. I figured that before I become all stroppy, it'll be better if I leave now.

I unlocked the door of the bus and kicked my shoes off.

"El?"

No answer.

I walked to the lounge and found Jai sound asleep on El's lap, who was also, obviously asleep.

"El?" I shook her.

"Oh hey..." She rubbed her eyes and looked at me.

"Go to your bed hunny. I'll take care of Jai." I whispered to her. I didn't want Jai waking up now.

"Sure. Thanks. Goodnight"

"Night love"

She walked to her bunk while I carried Jai to mine.

I laid him down and went to quickly change into my pjs.

I crawled in together with Jai and pulled the blanket over us.