Little Things

Chapter 11: Change My Mind

JAY'S POV

"Jay?"

"Huh?"

"Yes to....?"

"Oh right....uh"

I got drifted away by my thoughts earlier on and now Louis is just staring worriedly at me.

I can't break him.

"Yes...to girlfriend"

"What?!"

"Yeah..."

"Are you sure?!"

"Yeah....."

"Ohmygod Jay I'm so happy!" I pulled me into his arms as e wrapped his arms tightly around me.

I returned it with a weak hug.

He pulled away, hands around my waist as he looked into my eyes.

"I love you"

Those words.

So simple.

Yet so much it can do.

He started to lean in when-

"Guys?"

Oh blimey.

For the first time, I actually want to thank Harry for interrupting.

Louis instantly pulled away and looked right back at Harry.

"Yeah?" I answered.

"Uh...it's getting late and we have to wake early tomorrow. And uh... Jai...he can't sleep"

"Can't sleep? Come on then, where is he?" I asked as I walked past Harry and down the stairs.

I didn't even spare Louis a glance.

I have feelings too you know.

I walked into the room where Jai was asleep with Harry hot on my heels.

Well this is weird.

"Uh..... Harry?"

"Yeah?"

"Jai's asleep...."

"Oh! Uh.. He must have slept when I left to find you"

I let out a sigh and turned to Harry.

"Alright then. Nights" I said as I let out a yawn.

"Night" he stated before walking out of the door.

This boy confuses me.

One second he's like my best friend and the next is like he hardly knows me.

I took a quick shower, without wetting my hair and changed into my pjs.

I sat on my bed and all these thoughts just came rushing into my mind.

How can I be with someone when I don't even love him?

Lou will break if he finds out.

He would also have broke if I didn't say yes to him. He's been waiting for 4 years just for this.

I've tried. I've tried to make myself love him... But I can't. All I ever see him is as a best friend.

I know they say that best friends make the best boyfriends but it's just not the case for me.

Do I love someone else?

Oh man.

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