Until i saw her again...

chapter 9

Jungkook's POV:

I tried to stop her but she didn't listen to me and I just thought, it will be better if I just leave her alone right now. It will be best for both of us. I know, kissing her was not the best decision right now but I couldn't stop myself from doing that.
l just miss her, I miss her lips, I miss her smell, I guess I miss everything about her, I miss being with her. I just want both of us to be like the way we used to be, madly in love with each other. When we used to around each other, we never noticed what is happening around it was a great feeling of being lost in one another.

And now whenever she says that she hates me, those words are unbearable for me because I know she doesn't hates me but still those words hurt alot. I know, she thinks I deserve all the hatred she gives me but she never asked me about that incident which seperated us from each other. You know what hurts even more that she didn't give me chance to explain myself.
How could she think that I cheated on her, as she never saw the way I stare at her, I never looked to any women like I see her, I just can take off my eyes from her, I can never ever do that not even in my dreams but she won't believe this. I don't understand what can I do to make her trust me again.

Y/N pov :

I went out while ignoring that he was calling me and started running towards my office. I just don't wanted anyone to see me in such vulnerable state. I went inside my office while locking my door and tears started rolling down from my cheeks, I have been trying to control them but I couldn't and all I can think was how can I allow someone like him (the person who cheated me) to touch me or I would say kiss me, each and every moment that we spent together
whether happy or sad started to flash in front of my eyes.
All I wanted is to never see him again in my entire life.
I tried my hard to forget him, just hate him as much as I can but I think I have failed and again as I am allowing him to hurt me like he did last time.

It's not like we didn't had great time together.
Flashback:
When he asked me out for the very first time, I thought he was joking cause he was hottest boy in my class every girl used to drool over him and like any other girl will go out with him but why he is asking me out? He did that infront of the whole class. It was really shocking and kinda embarassing for me so I didn't said anything and just ran away from that place.
I didn't go to college for like 2-3days. That was really embarssing for me and I can't even tell this to Tae you know he is kinda possessive best friend. But even when I was not going to college this Jungkook was calling me everyday. At first, I didn't pick up his call but now he was getting on my nerves so after 20 miss call I called him back.

Y/N : Hey, Jungkook what is your problem ?

Jungkook : It's you .

Y/N: What do you mean ?

Jungkook: You are not picking up my calls,  not coming to college, What is all this ? I am worried about you ! You should atleast message me or call me back.

Y/N : And why I should tell you anything about me ?

Jungkook : Cause I am your boyfriend ( with little cute bunny laugh)

Y/N : No you are not and if it some kinda of joke so please stop this. I know, it is fun for you to propose girls but not with me. Okay .

Jungkook : For your kind information, I never proposed any other girl before you. You are the first and last for sure and last but not least I am not joking. I seriously like you. I really want you to go out with me. See, I know it is difficult for you to trust me but I am just asking for one chance just one date and even after that you don't like me, I won't distrub you. I promise.