A No Is A No Unless I Said Yes

Delightful Dilemma

Zon is a blushing bundle of nerves. A stark contrast to the calm sleeping person leaning on him. He's always been flustered around the guy lately and he's not sure he wants to know why.

What he did know is, that he's never been indifferent to Saifah. Everything the other does elicits a reaction from him. A nervous blush. Annoyance. Loud and rapid heartbeats. And just recently, only recently, a sense of longing. A need to see him. There were other things too but he couldn't properly label them at the moment.

Giving those feelings fitting names will have to wait when he is no longer feeling his face unusually warm and when the beat of his heart is less troubled than it is now.

With nothing to do but wait till the other person woke up, Zon tried thinking of anything other than Saifah. Anything other than putting his arms around him and stroking his back. Anything other than holding the sleeping person's hands in his own. And anything other than how Saifah's hair will feel under his touch.

He then settled with work. That sounds like the safest choice. And once he has decided, Zon began mentally outlining the things he needs to do when Saifah stirred in his sleep. He didn't really moved a lot but his head slightly turned and inched closer enough for his soft breaths to brush up against Zon's pale neck. And any thoughts other than Saifah quickly vanished. Zon shivered with the gentle blows, his mind came up blank, too muddled to think of anything other than the sweet torture of Saifah's every exhale.

The pleasant predicament lasted for what felt like a decade and in every passing second Zon can't help but become agonizingly aware of where their bodies connected. His shoulder that should have been numb felt like it's on fire with a million nerve endings to remind him of the heat. And if he felt his face just unusually warm earlier, it's totally burning hot right now. Zon's heartbeat also became too erratic while his own breathing hard and labored.

And as if to save him from a situation he can't come to dislike, Saifah woke up from his sleep. He slowly opened his eyes but didn't immediately lift his head from where it's resting. Instead he smiled while craning his neck to look at the person beside him and managed a, "Good morning my Zon." Putting an end to Zon's delightful dilemma.

Zon would have corrected him any other day but for now he can only hum in response to this. And it's fastly becoming a habit around Saifah.

Once Saifah lifted his head and proceed to stretch, Zon sprung to his feet and quickly walked a few steps. Feeling an urgent need for a bit of a distance and breathing space.

"Is there something wrong?", Saifah asked surprised by Zon's action.

"Oh nothing. My shoulder's a bit numb is all.", Zon replied with his back still facing Saifah while trying to do some stretches of his own.

"Shouldn't you be going home by now? It's a friday and there'll surely be traffic."

"Will it always be like this? You're constantly in a rush to send me away.", Saifah said with no attempt at hiding his disappointment. Not even bothering at endearments.

Zon felt sharp pains after hearing Saifah's dejected tone. It wasn't his intention to sound like he's in a hurry to get rid of the other person but his words can easily be understood as such.

It's the first time he is spending time again with Saifah after he brought him home five long days ago and he knows he can't let it end like this. He doesn't want it to end like this.

Not trusting only his words to help him much at this point, Zon turned and walked towards Saifah. He then grabbed his left hand before saying, "Let's go inside. You should eat first. I'll cook."

And Saifah's mood immediately changed from utter dejection to one of happiness and elation. All previous disappointment forgotten as he stood up and let Zon drag him towards their house.

"I didn't know my Zon can cook.", Saifah said more to himself than the other as he enjoys the feel of Zon's hand holding his.

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