A No Is A No Unless I Said Yes

In The Midst Of Storm

Betrothed. Intended. Fiancé.

I definitely heard those words before. I just didn't expect to hear them again today. Of all days. Addressed to me. In front of my parents. With our "important guests". If something else was said after that I didn't know. I can only hear the clock ticking in our living room. I didn't know it sounded that loud until today. And my heart too, which beats so loud and clear and urgent like someone incessantly knocking at the door to be let in. Only mine wants to get out and so do I.

To say that I was shocked was an understatement. This whole thing has turned my world upside down and thrown it out into the outer space. Ok, erase the part about outer space. I know I should be in complete panic mode right now, I mean I am but this me is still relatively relaxed compared to my other outbursts. Probably because I just can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that my parents are seriously arranging a marriage for me. For one, my parents aren't the serious types. And second we weren't kids of some crazy rich asians with wealth and inheritance problems who can be blackmailed to take on equally unwilling spouses just because so much is at stake. My parents weren't broke either but I don't think they have something which interests me to the point where I will say yes to this arrangement.

Lastly, I am an adult now. Earning my own keep. Paying my own bills. Totally capable of getting my own place if my parents decided to be mean and kick me out of the house and remove me from the family registry. Please don't let them get to the last part.

Now don't ask me what's going on in my parents' minds. I haven't got a single clue. I'm not sure if I even wanna go there. And I'm not even sure I know what's happening anymore. This couldn't be real right? But if this is even remotely true which I am slowly slightly getting convinced of every passing minute, then I totally get it why they didn't tell Zol. That brat will probably freak out and giggle and excite herself to death before this day ever happened. I kind of give a thumbs up to my parents for their quick thinking there. But putting this sudden realization aside, where in the world is Zol right now? I need her to be freaking out here so I can make an excuse to get out by taking her to her room. Useless, useless sister. She's missing just when I needed her the most.

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