North Star

Chapter X

I wake up while my arms are in her waist.  I smiled. I just have my afternoon sleep which I don't normally do.
It's 6 in the evening. She's still sleeping. I don't want something will happen to her. I'm doing my best to save her.
I'm contacting my friend in Minnesota. His wife is a doctor too. She is specializing for women. She can help Finn.
I remember when mom told me about her.
It's June,I have six months to do my mission. Her condition is getting worst. Her hair started to brittle. That means her illness is deteriorating.
I do the cooking everyday to ensure that she eats nutritious food and keep her balanced diet. I'm checking her status secretly. Her family and my family were working together discreetly too.

I was worried when she told me about her hair. I feel she's about to die. So what I did,I threw her shampoo on the trash can and let her use mine.

"Theo" she shouted horridly. I left the kitchen after I turned the stove. I saw her looking at the bed. There is blood stains.
"What's that?"I asked her.
She held her head.
" I had my period again. Theo,I'm scared."
She got the cover. I get another cover to put in the bed. She went to the bathroom to change.
Oh Jesus,don't let her die early.
I have to pay her $2 million and send it to her account. When she came out,she cried again.
"Why?"
"It's painful and my head is getting excruciating too. I don't want this."
I looked at her. She's living her life miserable. Suddenly I was too shocked when I saw her nose bleeding. I gave her tissue to wipe it. I touched her forehead.
"Gosh! You're burning. "
I immediately got an ice pack and put it on her forehead. She's pale and weak.
"Don't leave me please ?"
"Of course I won't."
I called my mom.
After thirty minutes, she's here already.
"Mom,let's bring her to the hospital."
"Okay."
I carried her to my car. We immediately went to the nearest hospital.
"Mommy,is she okay?"
"I'm not sure. This time is hard for her."
We are waiting for the doctor who assisted her. My hands are shaking.
"She's fine."
"I'm scared. I'm not sure of myself if something happened to her."
"Don't worry."
The doctor went out.
"We need her to be operated as soon as possible. She had leukemia too. Not in terminal stage but it is getting worst if her cyst in the ovary will be worsen."
"My God!"I gasped for an air when he told us. I sat again.
" Doctor"
"I can't assure you if she gets better after the operation. She needs to have chemotherapy for her leukemia."
"We will pay no matter how much is it,doctor. Save her please."
"We will do our best. We need her chart of her previous medication."
"Okay. But the previous doctor told them that she has one year remaining of her lives. It's not true right?"I said. My tears were flowing on my cheeks. If I won't ask him,I would become crazy thinking she might leave me unexpectedly.
" It's hard to say but yes. I agree with the doctor. We found out that her leukemia worsen due to her cyst. It might be shorten because of her cyst."
Seems like the world is in my shoulder now. It's heavy.
Now I'm crying as if she died already.
"Pull yourself together. She'll be okay!"
"What if she won't?"
The doctor left.
I want to cry and cry until no more tears will come out.
"Don't let her see you crying. She will be lonely if you do."
I wiped my face with my handkerchief.
"Let's get inside." My mom told me.
I saw her lying on the bed and eyes were closed. I sat on the chair next to her bed.
"You stay here,Stephan,I'll be back tomorrow morning. Surely your dad is home by now."
I nodded my head.
"Should we call her parents?"
"Later if she's okay."
"Okay."
My mom left.
I was all alone in her room. Looking at her now,pale and weak,my heart is going to explode. I wish I was the one on that bed. I held her hand.
"Be strong. I will do my best to save you from that illness."
She has oxygen mask on her mouth and the life monitor machine continues making its sound.
We met but in this scary situation. How could this be a happy ending for me?
From her room,I can see the sky. The stars above were looking at her too.
"Can't you see the stars? They are beautiful."
My eyes were looking at the brightest star in the sky.  The North star is shining.
"Before,I served that star is you so that I won't be lonely watching the sky. And I could feel you are watching over me too. Now,I'll be that star. I am always watching over you. I will be your north star,shining and always be there for you. So don't be sad. Be strong to live your dreams. I want you to do that for me."
At 9 in the evening,her doctor entered to check her.
"Mr. Falcon,please sign the waiver for her operation tomorrow. We need to do it as soon as possible."
"Yeah,doctor Smith."
"But we advised you to let her stay her for a month. We have to check her time to time."
"Okay,"
"Good. Don't worry,we will do our best to save her."
"Thank you."
The nurse got her pulse rate and her blood pressure.
"Nurse,can I ask something?"
"Yeah,sir what is it?"
"Can she still conceive a child after the operation?"
"There is 50% possibility, sir,since it's cyst in the ovary."
"Okay "
"Don't worry. Trust God to help her. She'll be fine and you'll have healthy and happy family."
"Thanks."

The nurse left. I couldn't sleep because of her. I have to stay awake to watch her if she's doing fine.
Sometimes I became cranky with her because I want to cover my real emotions. I don't want her to know that I love her before,now and forever. I feel the moment I become too close to her I can tell my real feelings to her.

Her breathing became heavy. I looked at the monitor. The line is not stable.
"Finn,Finn. Don't do that."
Her heartbeat is getting slower.
"Oh c'mon,Finn. "
I immediately called the doctor. They are rushing to our room.
"We need to operate her now."
My tears began to flood in my cheeks. They brought her to the operation room. I called my mom to come to the hospital.
Good thing she's still awake. My dad came too.
"Stephan,where is she?"
"She's in the operation room."
We waited for about an hour.
My mom is walking back and forth.
"Will you stay here,Elena? I'm dizzy looking at you."my dad said.
The doctor came out. He looks so sad.
" We did our best. Let's wait until she wakes up. Let's pray for the best."
My mom held my hand firmly. My dad tapped my back.
"Don't worry son,she'll be okay."
My hopes are high. I will be positive. But I can't help to be negative. Chances are rare.
I want that chance for her.
"Mom,I don't want her to leave me. I want her by my side."
My mom hugged me.
"You love her,don't you?"
"I do."