Forever & Always

I Lost A Friend : 5

*mentions of suicide*
John B's pov:
     We all hopped into the van and drove behind the ambulance. I drove and Pope took shotgun. The only sounds I could hear were the ambulance sirens, and Sarah and Kie's sobs. I really hope that she's going to be okay. I can't lose another person I love.
     We parted ways with the ambulance to enter the Grey-Sloan Memorial Hospital ER parking lot. We rushed out of the van and watched as people rushed her into the building. We ran in behind them and saw them take her inside a room. She still looked unconscious. I think that's a bad sign.

Kiara's pov:
     Ringing and buzzing was all I heard running from the van and into the ER. I saw them take Hailey into a room and I tried to follow but a doctor stopped me. They were speaking to me but I couldn't hear them. I kept resisting and tried to run into her room. Then a pair of arms wrapped around my waist and pulled me back. I was still yelling I think. Someone had blocked my vision by stepping in front of me and I could hear again.
     "Calm down Kie." I heard Pope say from behind me. He was the one who grabbed me. I stopped screaming and started sobbing into him. I opened my eyes to see a doctor directing Sarah and John B to the waiting room. Pope started to walk behind them with his arms wrapped around me. I sat down in a chair and just sobbed. Sarah did the same. I reached over and grabbed her hand. She squeezed mine and I squeezed back.
     It felt like hours before a doctor by the name of Dr. Hunt came and updated us. He said she was stable but still unconscious. Other doctors were taking her to get tests done to make sure there was no damage to anything.
     "Does she have any family we can call?" Dr. Hunt asks us.
     "She doesn't have a family. We are as close to a family that she's got. She lost her mom years ago and her father is unknown." Pope says. JJ comes into view and John B walks over to hug him. His eyes were red and puffy, and his shirt along with his face were tear stained.
     "Do any of you know her medical records? As in any diseases, allergies, conditions she has been diagnosed with?" He asks again. I bring myself to speak.
     "She doesn't do well with pollen, and has depression and anxiety. That's all any of us know." He nods.
     "We are going to get her tested for some underlying issues incase something goes wrong." I nod and he walks away.

JJ's pov:
     I was dizzy and in pain I didn't know I could experience. I've had some shitty things happen to me, but this by far is the worst. I answered some simple questions about her on the ride over. When I came into the waiting room I heard a doctor asking everyone the same questions. John B walked over and hugged me. I hugged him back tightly and sat down.
     We waited for forever and a new doctor came. All of us stood up.
     "She's still unconscious but you can come see her now." Her name tag read Dr. Pierce. She led us to the room where Hailey was. A few other doctors were in there as well.
     "She looks good so far. We still are waiting for her CT results which ultimately tell you wether or not she is good." Says one of the doctors. I took Hailey's hand in mine as I sit down next to the bed.
     "I'm going to go see what's taking the scans so long." Dr. Pierce says as she walks out and the other doctors follow behind her. We all sit in silence for about 5 minutes, then a monitor starts rapidly beeping. We all jump away from the bed and nurses start flooding in.
     "She's coding! Someone page cardio!" One of the nurses say. Kie and Sarah start to cry again. I do as well.
     "What the hell is going on?" I yell. We were ushered out of the room as Dr. Hunt runs in. I try to resist being pushed out but realize it might jeopardize Hailey. People begin to rush Hailey out of the room and push her down a hallway.

Sarah's pov:
They rushed Hailey out of her room and down a hallway. I start to sob again thinking that this might be it.
"What the hell happened?" JJ asks as Dr. Pierce runs up to Hailey's room realizing she's gone.
"I'm not sure. I got a page saying she coded. I got her scans back and she has an aortic aneurism, which I think is what caused all this. I need to get up to surgery now, I'll update you when I'm done." She says running off at a sprint.
Kie and I hug each other and sob. We all are thinking the worst. Pope and John B sit down and JJ is frozen. God I hope she makes it through this.

Hailey's pov:
I stand up in the darkness but feel as though I'm pushed back down. The darkness fades into a bedroom. An all to familiar one, Katelyn's. I feel a huge wave of sadness come over me. I look out her window and see me in 6th grade running around in the snow with Katelyn. We look genuinely happy. I shed a tear at that.
Darkness appears for a second then turns into the Colorado airport. I see Katelyn and I crying and saying goodbye as I head to board my plane. It was the last time I ever saw her in person.
The same darkness appears once again. This time I see Katelyn in her room talking to me on FaceTime. We finish talking and she hangs up. She instantly begins to cry. She walks over to her desk and begins writing something. I look over her shoulder to see the same suicide note her sister sent me a picture of. I start sobbing. I haven't looked at that in years.
She walks into her kitchen and grabs a knife. She enters her bathroom, closes the door behind her, and slits her wrists vertically all the way up her arm. Tears violently streaming down her face, mine as well. She drops to the floor and passes away. I drop to the floor and begin sobbing harder than I already was.
Darkness surrounds me once again and then I'm back in her room. I see her mom trying to break down Katelyn's locked bathroom door. She breaks it down and sees Katelyn. I couldn't bare to watch anymore.
"Make it stop! Please!" I yelled knowing no one could hear me.
I close my eyes and open them again. I'm back in my room. Was everything all a dream? Did I not surf the wave? Was I alive? I storm out of my room to see the Pogues crying in the living room.
"Woah what's wrong, why is everyone crying?" I say, but none of them turn to me.
"Guys?" I say sitting down next to JJ.
"I can't believe she's really gone." Sarah coughs out.
"W-who's gone?" I ask. Then the darkness comes back.
"Fuck!" I yell into the darkness once again. I think Sarah was talking about me. I hear the voices around me once again. I see a light over in the distance. I focus on one of the many voices.
"Walk to the light." I do as it says. Then the light surrounds me.
I hear monitors beeping and feel something holding my hand. I open my eyes just enough to see blurry figures on the side of my bed. They look like the Pogues. I look around and see that I'm in a hospital room. I think about everything that happened before I ended up in here. I decided to be clever.
"Forever and always, right?" I say referring to the last thing I said to JJ. I open my eyes. Everyone jumps and JJ whips his head up at me. All I can do is smile.

Please Read: Hailey's dream was inspired by something that happened in my life. I lost my internet best friend to suicide, summer going into 7th grade. Her name is Katelyn as it is in the story. She was my only best friend I had for about 3 years. We talked every night. When I told everyone at school about her death, no one believed me. It wasn't until this year that people started to believe me. So I dedicate this chapter to her. She will forever hold a special place in my heart. Ever since then I've been an active suicide prevention advocate. I try everything I can to help voice the importance of suicide prevention. I hope you can stand alongside me as well💙 The song at the top is from a Grey's Anatomy musical episode that I loved. It went along with the story so I just put it there. I also wanted to implicate Grey's Anatomy into the story as it is tied as my favorite show with OBX. - thank you all for reading chapter 5, hope you enjoyed! as always leave me a message if you have any suggestions! until next time loves!!