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LOVE OR BEYOND LOVE?

Do you know what is love? Is there any firm answer? 

I don't think so...
Nobody can tell you that,  this is love.
Sometimes I also get confused.  What is love??
Did I even know???

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*Next Morning*

I was in kitchen,  making coffee. .. (For me. 😂). I know that sleepyhead will not wake up at 7 am. It's midnight for him😌.

I put two sugar cubes for my coffee..
I was stirring the sugar but gently. I didn't want to wake him up. It's not a loud sound but still....

I turned and WTF....

ME: OHHH.. Ohh.. God you scared me...!!

DR: um.. Oh. Sorry. I just came.

Me: Ohhh.. But what happened ? Are you okay?

DR: Everything is fine.. Why?

Me: it's 7 ... And you are up already that's why.

I didn't even I realized that I shamelessly said those words.

Darshan made a face like who said I am a latelateef.

Me: No.. I mean you slept really late last night.. So I thought... I mean I am not saying that you are a sleepyh... Oopss.. No no.. I mean..... Last night you l...

DR: Last night.. Just forget it.

Me: huh?

DR: Just forget about last night.

I was so confused.

Nothing happened last night right.
I mean. It was a hug. And I thought it helped him,  it gave him comfort... But why...

Why should I forget?

DR: See Disha... I... Huuuuhhhhhh... I can't open up myself like this. I....
I don't know... But I feel uncomfortable right now when I think that you saw me like this... I...

Me: Darshan...??  Are you uncomfortable around me? 

DR: I don't know..... I.. Just...

Me: It's OK Darsh... If you feel uncomfortable.. Then I will leave. It's just been a week right?  How can you trust someone like me.. I got it.. I...

DR: No...noooo.. No. Disha.. I am saying that. Just.... Okay...
From now on if you saw me like this..
Just don't come to me.

Me: and if I come?

DR: What?

Me: What if I come closer to you and hug you like I did ? Huh?

DR: then... I will hate you.

Me: I smiled ..okay.

DR: What okay?

Me: I will accept your hate.

DR: DISHA.....

ME: I told you Darshan.. I will share your pain. And hate?  Huh... Thats a very mere fact for me.

I was about to leave.  I couldn't drink the coffee.
He said..

DR: is it because you are a fan or is it because you love me?

I turned..

Me: At first I thought that it's just a fan  idol thing... But then I realized no it's something else..
Then I thought maybe I fell in love with you... But Darshan... In love,  a man and women both should be involved right,  I should have some expectations from you or I should worry about your temper... But..

What is this Darshan?  You tell me.

I have no expectations,  no demands,  no dreams. The only thing I want is your happiness. Your comfort. Your peace.
And for that.. I can bear hatred. So...
Now...
You tell me...
Is it love?  Or beyond love?

His eyes stucked at mine. Both of us can hear each others heartbeats.
I just want him to hug me.
Yes..
OK... At least a smile... It would be enough to calm down the thunder waves at my heart.