i struggle with paying attention to conversations
and other people in general
i have to constantly
ask people what they said
because i didn't hear them
i mean,
it wasn't because i couldn't HEAR them
but it was because i wasn't listening
i space out often
i think about the shitty moments in my life
how horrible everything is
yes,
i know it's unhealthy
but this year has been extremely hard for me
it is one of the worst years of my life
i wake up
excited for a new day
but i always feel like shit at the same time
my dreams have been getting worse
along with my daydreams
i've started having horrible nightmares
they're giving me severe anxiety and panic attacks
oh yeah--
that's a thing too--
anxiety
it's all that's been swarming
my mind lately
i can't think
or do anything
without my anxiety
being raised by 200 notches
i haven't been talking to friends lately--
im never in the mood to anymore
ive noticed that ive been
having some weird eating cycles lately it's unhealthy,
i know
everything that ive ever written is unhealthy
but listen
earth to toby!
you're not paying attention
YOU ARE READING
cardinal.
Poetrypoetry written by me, toby. i write pretty frequently, posted or not. here's a shorter version of my story. still a bit long, but easy to read.
