I Am Not Afraid Of Who I Am( Book 4) TVD fan-fic

chapter 17

Chapter 17( her dress, hairstyle and shoes above)

The next day, was the pageant and I was going crazy. I stood in the room where we were supposed to change into our dresses for the pageant was, pacing. Elena came into the room and her eyes widened" wow, who are you and what have you done with my none girly sister, Molly Gilbert" I laughed

" oh, she's still here if you need to kick supernatural butt or something, I just made her pretty for the day" I followed her down the hall, laughing. I went outside and lined up with the others. One by one we were called " April young Accompanied by Matt Donovan " April was dressed in beautiful red dress. " Milisa Gilbert, Accompanied by Klaus Mikaelson" I took Klaus's hand and he led me over with the the other girls. Caroline smirked and I shot her a glare.

We lined up, the music started, and we danced." This dance feels stupider, every year" I mumbled to him and he chuckled. " well, at least there's one thing about this that makes it worth while" I raised an eyebrow" and what's that" I asked

" the goddess I'm dancing with" my eyes widened. the dance ended and I walked off as everyone clapped. I went over and got a drink " molly, are you alright" I looked over to see Ari and I shook my head. I went over to Elena" your doing Fine, Molly " I shook my head

" I can't do this anymore, Elena"

" can't do what"

" I saw Jillian, last night" her eyes widened" and Xella, I've seen what happens if I try to ignore it and its horrible"

" what's going to happen, Molly, what did you see"

" she....she didn't have a mouth, Elena" her eyes widened in horror" Xella didn't have a mouth. I can't do this anymore, what if that happens to me" Elena took my hands" it wont, I won't let it"

" no one can stop it Elena, its a curse to be born a witch in this family, Xella died because she ran, Jillian died because she went crazy and Ari, she died because she couldn't take it anymore-" Elena cut me off

" and they all had one thing in common, they were alone but you have friends and family"

" Ari had family, she had Katherine, Elijah and me but still couldnt do it"

" but you have one thing she didn't"

" and what's that"

" your fighter, Molly, and you will make it through" she told me and I nodded. We were called up on stage, where the crown was to be awarded, I already knew who it was going be so, I leaned and whispered" good job" to April, she gave me a confused look just as they called the winner" and the winner is.... April Young" I smlied and clapped, like a good sport. I spotted Klaus with a smile on his face but he wasn't looking at Caroline or April. The pageant ended and I went inside to change but he stopped me as I reached the door.

" I heard your conversation with your sister, why didn't you tell me, Sweetheart"

" and ruin my sisters chances of being human again, no. Its my path and I have to walk it alone, if I step off of it, I'm dead" I went into the room and closed the door. I changed out of my dress and left the room, to find Klaus with his arms crossed, blocking my exit. " you don't have to walk it alone, I can help you." I shook my head and he grabbed my arms" why can't you see it, I've dropped hint after hint"tears fell down my cheeks

" I'm not Jillian" I pulled away and walked down the hallway, leaving him in the hallway shocked. I went back to the Mikaelson house and put the dress away. " that was a low blow, Molly" Ari told me and I sighed." I don't want to talk about this right now, Ari" but she ignored me

" your making the same mistake I did with Elijah 500 years ago, you have a chance to change everything and your wasting it, Molly" she yelled. I sat on the bed tears in my eyes." Please, don't make the mistake I did" then she disappeared. I laid down and looked at the ceiling, my phone buzzed and I looked to see a call from Bonnie. I answered it with another sigh.
Bonnie
Molly

You've reached Molly Gilbert, the doomed witch

Had a bad day, Molly

You have no idea

I need to ask you something about your Ancestor, Xella

Is this for you or Shane, the creepy new Professor of Occult studies

Your on speaker phone, Doomed witch

Not sorry, Shane, what do you want to know

To know the story of Xella and her connection to Silas

And why should I tell you

Because your a nice person

Not today, today I get to wallow in misery and truth, I get to decide whether I want to die or not, like Xella did. So your going to have to ask someone else or wait tell the mark is done, then find out her part of the story

Molly, this could help Elena

I'm not in the mood, Bonnie, please, just wait and I'll tell you

OK, but please, its important

Then they hung up and I rolled over , falling asleep