I Am Not Afraid Of Who I Am( Book 4) TVD fan-fic

chapter 23

Chapter 23

I sat at the bar drinking whiskey. I downed another glass and sighed, pouring another. Someone sat next to me and I looked to see Alaric" saw what happened, you OK"

" nothing I can do about it Ric, this is the path I chose and I'm going to take one step at a time"

" but you don't have too, you could leave right now"

" and then spend the rest of my life looking over my shoulder, no thanks"he sighed" you shouldn't have to live this way"

" when I got my first vision, I saw the future I would never have, the things I wouldn't get and I thought, why, why am the one that gets the curse and Elena gets a normal life, but now everything has changed." I downed another glass and sighed." What if you took the cure, you could still have life"

" no, it wouldn't work, when the cure was created, Questiah made it impossible for my ancestor, I can't take the cure, its useless to me"

" so, Xella was just supposed suffer for eternity while Silas got to be happy on the other side"

" the price to pay for friendship, and Xella was willing to do anything, she was like a sister to him but secretly, she loved him"

" why didn't she tell him"

" one thing that all four of us have in common, we miss the chance " I paid for my drink and Alaric followed me outside." Jillian loved Klaus and he loved her but she died before they told each other. Ari loved Elijah and he loved her but again they never got the chance, until last year before the ritual. Xella loved Silas but he didn't love her."

" but what about you" as he said it Klaus appeared across the street and I smiled" I haven't found him yet" Alaric disappeared and I sighed. Klaus came over to me and smiled" I'm sorry, I used the sire bond but you wouldn't answer me, Sweetheart"

" I don't care about the sire bond, Klaus. Its what you said to me during the pageant" he frowned" what I said was true"

" I'm just not ready for that" then I walked away. Reaching down I picked up a bit of fake snow, then threw it in the air. I sighed sitting down on a bench. Tyler came over and sat next to me." Does he know what happened last night"I shook my head, he smiled and hugged me" you were the best running partner anyone could have" then he did something that shocked me, he kissed me. I sat there like a fish" even if you only did it, to try to live out of her shadow, I did love you" then he got up and walked away. Klaus came over to me frowning," did you know what they were planning"

" what are you talking about"

" they were planning on putting me in Rebekah's body with a dagger in my heart" my eyes widened" I..I didn't know " he grabbed my arm, pulling me off the bench. We followed Adrian to Lockwood celler, where Klaus pulled out the hunters sword and ripped out his heart. I backed away as he started to kill everyone and closed my eyes as they screamed in pain. Then everything went quite and I opened my eyes, I cried as I looked around, hearts laid everywhere, headless bodies were leaned against trees.

I heard footsteps and looked over to see Klaus coming out of the celler, covered in blood, the sword in his hand." You killed them, why"

" because they were traitors and their lives meant nothing to me"

" and what about me, if I wasn't connected to you"I snapped and his eyes narrowed." You will watch what you say, love "

" or what, you'll lock me in my room, threaten my friends and family, what more can you do to me. you killed my father, you need my brother, sister and me. " raising his hand he back handed me and I fell to the ground in tears." I may still need you but I can still take everything away from you, your future, your family, your emotion, even your very life, I can leave you with nothing but emptiness, but if you do as I say, I won't have to, understand " I nodded and he smiled" now go home and wait for me" I stood up and started walking.

When I got home, I sat on the couch and a couple minutes later Klaus was pacing in front of me." Tyler will pay for what he tried to do tonight and did"I was silent and he looked at me. " you may go"I stood up and went to bed.