haphazard thoughts.

era

babes i just wanna talk abt how we live in such a progressive era ??? like okay ik that this is probably not the best time to say it but i just have been thinking

so if y'all have alrdy read the other chs or at least the ones abt the girl i used to like y'all will know a bit but just for clarity purposes i will reiterate 

so i am attracted to men making me straight (?) but i have liked a girl,, online but nevertheless

and ive been in relationships w men 

even tho i liked a girl i consider myself straight just bc men r who i am attracted to and i am not in general attracted to women yknow? like i can see a guy and b like omg hes so hot/good looking and i will crush a lot <//3

but for girls i can recognize they r pretty but i never feel an attraction

the girl i liked i really fell in love with her personality </3 and yea i was rlly struggling with admitting it to myself but i did and i don't think i cld go back

if u asked me if i would ever like a girl again? i would say yea for sure. personality has always been the factor i look for over looks. so if a girl came by with an amazing personality?? and was bi/gay ?? and flirted with me ?? i would be heads over heels <33 (mind u i have actually come by multiple girls like dis but i still have only liked 1)

SO anyways back to the progressive thing

when i first realized i liked a girl my immediate thought was that i was bi (which i have now taken back) so ofc i had thoughts abt my parents 

they're asian and actually pretty open minded but still !! big thing big thing. i did not end up telling them while i was in my confusion state but i did think abt it a lot

i was like if i tell them would they disown me? would they come to my wedding? (if i married a girl) i was v v v unsure how they wld take it

but anyways! theres a guy who works for my dad who is gay and my dad is completely fine with it. LIKE! they are literally friends. (o yea and my mom listens to me talk abt bls HAHHA we stay winning)

sooo i was rethinking abt it and i have come to the conclusion that if i came out they would be mostly accepting 

like i think they wld go thru a "are u sure?" phase and "minor disappointment" to "okay but pls marry a guy" lolol

which to be very honest sounds really good

so in conclusion i stay winning w open minded non homophobic parents <33 

and i highly think i cld come out  with minor issues ,,, well at least i hope

but yeaa i just cant believe how progressive of an era we live in??

also this would not be possible with the worker we will call jam

everyone thank jam for the service he has done for the world, he is truly a blessing pls

and also when i say come out i just mean like if i ever told me i was in a relationship with a girl or summ

idk i dont think im bi so yea

y'all can lmk what u think but ive alrdy thought a lot abt this subject and my conclusion is,, i am straight but w/ exceptions

i promise i dont have internalized homophobia jsjs

i feel like ppl r not gonna believe me but i swear that is my life. yea so im pretty happy where im at! we shld just how the freedom to like who we like and love who we love yknow? regardless of gender, age (no pedophilia that is very much excluded), and etc. 

okok babes thats all i wanted to say! so i best be going to watch yt vids or sum to keep me awake

i was planning on writing but now i feel tired </3 rip

aaa okay gnn!! love u all muah