High School Love?

I'm Supposed to Protect You - Chapter 4

My mouth wide open as I stared at Cade, who was standing in the doorway of the classroom, smirking at me. I watched as he walked over to where Jason and I were sitting. It was like I was in a trance and suddenly woke up as I snapped my mouth shut and glared at Cade. “What the hell are you doing here Cade?” I hissed at him.

“Whoa, babe, I don’t even get a hello?” He asked me, still smirking.

“Babe?” I heard Jason ask from behind me.

“Yes, babe, Addie here is my girlfriend and I hear you have one too, so if you could back off that would be great.” Cade tells him with a shooing motion.

“Cade, we are NOT dating and we will never date again.” I tell him, venom dripping in my words.

With that, I run out of the room with my bag. As I’m running, I hear Jason and Cade running after me. I don’t even turn around as I push myself to run faster. When I get to the parking lot, I slow down and turn around. Not seeing Cade or Jason following me, I walk over to my jeep and throw my bag in my passenger seat. I lean my head against the steering wheel. Cade is here. Cade is here. OH MY GOD CADE IS HERE. I keep trying to block out all the memories of what happened, but they’re crashing into me like a tidal wave and there’s nothing I can do to stop it.

After crying my eyes out for about 45 minutes, I look at my phone and see that it’s 11, so I text Axel, not bothering to text my parents because they’re on a business trip for the next month or so. I toss my phone in the cup holder and drive home.

Once I’m home, I go into the kitchen and grab chocolate, water, and some apples. I go into my room and change into my ‘movie day/night outfit’ which consists of a random band T-shirt that I stole from my brother, my sleep shorts from PINK, and some fuzzy socks. Throwing my hair up into a messy bun, I grab my food and my laptop. I opened Netflix and spent the rest of the day watching movies and eating.

I don’t know what time it was when Axel came home, but I heard a knock while I was in the middle of watching Mean Girls. “It’s open!” I yell as I pause the movie. Axel walks in with a confused and concerned expression on his face. 

“So why did you text me and tell me you were going home?” He asks me as he comes into my room.

“You see.. well..uh” I stutter out because don’t really have an answer for him.

“Addie, what’s wrong?” He’s obviously really concerned about me because I’ve never skipped school in my life.

“Cade’s back.” I say quietly, looking down at my hands in my lap.

I looked up from my hands and realized that Axel hasn’t said anything for the past 10 minutes. Looking up, I saw him breathing heavily, his face red with anger, and his fists clenched tightly. This is what usually happens before he blows up so I need to be careful with what I say.

Cautiously, I say, “Axel its okay, I’m fine, I just had a mental breakdown at school and-” “No! It’s not okay and you’re not Fine Adelaide! Do you not remember what that piece of scum did to you?! He raped you! What’s worse is he drugged you up so bad that you weren’t even close to trying to fight him off! I almost killed him that night, but you begged me not to because you said he wasn’t worth it. Against my own judgement, I listened to you. But I’m not going to listen to you anymore. If I even see him looking your way, I’m going to beat him up so much, they won’t be able to recognize him in the hospital.”

He pauses for a minute, taking a breath, before looking up at me with soft and loving eyes, “Addie, you’re my baby sister, it’s my job to protect you. As your older brother, I should protect you from boys, bike accidents, and falling out of trees. The one time you really needed me, I failed you. Everyday I have to live with that guilt that you got hurt because of me. You were destroyed in the most traumatic way, and I wasn’t there to protect you.” By the end of his speech, he was staring down at his lap while I stared at him, shocked.

I knew he was angry with what happened with me and Cade, but I never knew he felt guilty about it. I took his face in both of my hands, forcing him to look up at me “Axel, what happened between Cade and I is NOT your fault. I do not want you to feel guilty about something that wasn’t even in your control. It wasn’t even in my control because of how drugged up I was. I don’t blame you fro what happened, nor will I ever blame anyone but Cade.” By the time I was done talking, silent tears were streaming down my face. 

Axel wiped my tears away with his thumbs and placed his hands over mine on my face, “I just want to protect you Addie. As your older brother, I’m supposed to protect you.” 

He kissed my forehead softly and walked out of the room. I sighed loudly and flopped into my pillows. I pressed play on my laptop and spent the rest of the day in my room. 

I don’t know why Cade did what he did 6 months ago.

I don’t know why Jason had a sad look on his face when Cade told him we were dating.

But I do know one thing: I have no idea what I’m going to do about Cade Steller.

Here’s another chapter!! I’m so sorry I didn’t update yesterday, but my chapter kept getting deleted so I had to rewrite it a couple of times. So now we know what happened with Cade and Adelaide, but no one else knows but Cade, Axel, and Addie. Will Adelaide tell Jason? Or will Jason find out another way?

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xx.marina