I was busy scrolling through my phone when a notification suddenly popped.'Light Johnson commented on your photo'
I was shocked kase isa si Light sa mga favourite poets ko. Sa RA ko pa siya nag comment. I have RP friends kase sa RA ko.
I was flattered kase he said that I'm cute.
Days passed he messaged me saying "Hi"
Then I replied with a "hello"
I was shocked when he suddenly said that I'm his crush.
Once again I was flattered.
We talk for days until I decided to tell him that I have an RP account. I told him that we'll just talk there. He agreed with that.
We kept talking non-stop. He sends me VMs. He has an angelic voice. I didn't realize that I'm starting to like him.
I decided to tell him what I feel towards him. He said that he was happy because we had mutual feelings.
He didn't court me. Means wala kaming label at wala akong karapatan mag demand. He said he loves me and I was a fool to believe that.
I fell. I fell for him too. I told him that.
I was happy and proud. I finally found a person that truly loves me . It was happy at first pero nung nasa kalagitnaan na things started to get blurry.
He always manipulate me to get what he want. And I know that he's manipulating me because I always manipulate my friends.
I did everything to make him stay. We started fighting. He always starts the fight. Mataas ang pride niya. I never imagined myself na manuyo kase alam ko yung worth ko bilang babae.
Then one day he chatted me
"hon, wag kang magagalit ah. Aamin ako di ako yung may ari ng account na to. Pinahawak lang sakin to habang wala yung original owner. Then yung girlfriend niya gusto niyang mag set kami ng RS." I laughed bitterly.
I replied. "it's okay. It's not your account diba?. Pwede humingi ng favor? Can you delete this convo pag babalik na yung original na may ari? Coz these messages was just for you." he agreed. He didn't know that a few day ago I went trough his SBH page. I saw that he was being shipped. He was being shipped to a famous poet. I know that he's lying. I continued acting like a fool.
Then the day finally came. The "REAL" owner is going to take that account back. He told me thay he was so happy kasi he can finally own me. I was laughing bitterly while reading that kasi naman mag sisinungaling na ngalang siya halata pa.
Between me an underrated writer and the famous poet I know that he'll choose her because who doesn't want a famous poet as a girlfriend.
He added me on his other account. He chatted me there. I asked him to delete our conversation but I didn't told him to block me using that account. I laughed at him kasi naman I have 3 RP accounts. Yung isang RP ko friend niya. Di niya alam na ako yun.
He always talk to me during his free time because he makes articles. I don't know if that's true but oh well.
Then I finally decided to stop this no label relationship. I lied to him. I made reasons to make him stop talking to me.
My plan worked. Take note alam ko kung pano siya mag type and all of that.
I stalked him using my other account. I pity myself because I fell for an asshole. Ginawa niya akong kabit without even realizing it.
He always uses pwu instead of po.
Then last month I stalked him again. I laughed really hard when I saw his typings. Tama yung hinala ko. He just used me as a toy.
Naaawa ako dun sa poet na girlfriend niya kase his man cheated on her. At na guilty din ako kase ako yung ginamit. Kung alam ko lang sana edi sana di ko na siya pinatulan. Edi sana di ako nag mukang tanga.
I learned my lesson: Never ever fall in love in this fake world.
-The end
