Hidden personality (boyxboy)

20. Losing Everything

I get off my bed and walk to the bathroom. I turn on the cold water from the sink. I cuff my hands then dip my face in the little puddle in my hand. I dry my face using a towel. While rubbing my wet face I slowly walk out the bathroom then feel something wet on my feet I look down and see Jason's pee. I remember him protecting me from my stupid fear last night. I wip my eyes before the tears roll down my cheeks

I clean up everything not even grossed out cause what I'm dealing with now is much harder then this. I walk out of the bathroom

I walk down stairs and into the kitchen

Pullin' out the coupe at the lot
Told 'em "Fuck 12, fuck SWAT"
Bustin' all the bales out the box

I reach down for my phone with is on the floor. I pick it up and look at the cracked screen. I answer Sofia's call "hey" I say "babe where are you its 7:10pm your 10 minutes late" I'm sorry I'll be there"i said hanging up the phone

I search for my car keys in my pockets and living room. I spot them on the coffee table. I take them then look at Maya whose looking at me with a sad look on her face "I'll be back" I said then she nodded in response. I walk to the front door and open it I see Mason following me from behind

I pick him up and walk in my car. I put Mason on the passengers seat then start the car I drive for about 20 to 25 minutes then finally reach the park near Sofia's house. I pick up my cracked phone then call her "hello" I hear her speak from the other side of the line "Sofia I'm here" I said looking at the peaceful park

"okay I'm coming" she chirped then hung up. I take Mason then get out of the school. I look it then walk to one of the swings in the playground. "boo. Sofia jumped out of nowhere and scared me" Sofia you scared me"i said faking a smile "why have you been calling me Sofia lately" she saids going around the swings to face me

She sees Mason on my lep "oh my gosh mark his so cute. I didn't know you had a puppy" she said picking Mason up "Yeah mom bought him for me" I reply looking at the green grass. "so what happened to you. You look down" she asked still playing with Mason

I felt my tears rushing up my eyeballs one blink and they would be running down my cheeks. "babe what's wrong" she asked hugging me and wiping the tears of my eyes

"Sofia my life is a huge mess right now. I'm sorry" I said quietly sobbing "what's wrong talk to me" she said looking concerned.

I gently hold her hands then look at her straight in the eye. She returns the look "Sofia I'm so sorry. But I asked you to be my girlfriend cause I thought that you could change me. I thought if I spent most of my time with you I just might" I stop talking because of the words I couldn't say "you just might do what mark" she said angry but still worried "I just might be straight. I might stop liking guys but it didn't work I'm sorry for using you but I couldn't deal with the shame. Marcus was right I. Am. Gay" I forced myself to say the last three words

I keep quite then look at Sofia"so the rumors are true"she asked looking down. I nod in response "mark why would you play with my feelings like that" she calmly asked "Sofia I'm sorry" I say out of words" your sorry. Well sorry won't fix this. You made me believe you really loved me but you were just using me for your own selfish benefits "she said with eyes full of tears

"Sofia I really didn't want it to end up like this. I didn't know what to do. People were finding out about my hidden personality which is clearly not exceptable to them. I didn't want to walk everyday through the school corridor knowing that someone in there hates me for living" I say wiping my tears and uncontrollably sniffing

Sofia set there and kept quiet. She stood up seconds later then gave me Mason. I can see that she wants to walk away "Sofia" I say holding her hand "mark just don't touch me" she said yanking her hand away from me. She walks away leaving me crying on the swings. Her words are the same words Jason said to me. I stand up with Mason in my arms and get in my car

I put Mason on the passengers seat and rest my head on the steering wheel. Me life is falling apart Jason and Sofia hate me now. I wipe my tears and car the engine. I drive slowly looking at the short and tall buildings. The beautiful green tall tree planted by Mother natura

I park my car in the empty garage. I guess mom is still not at home. I turn of the engine then look at my phone debating whether I should or shouldn't call Jason. I pick up my badly cracked phone

I look at his number with my thumb right above it. I tap at the number then put the phone on my ear. I hear the first and second buz then beeeeeep he hung up. Never have I been emotional hurt like this before. I always called it drama when I saw people crying for their partners in the movies. I never ever thought of myself in the same situation

I take Mason, open the door then get out. I close the door then enter the house. I see Maya brushing princess on the sofa. She looks at me and says nothing. I put Mason down then walk passed her and headed for my room

I push the door close with all my energy drained. I drag my feet to my bed. I notice the light coming in my room through the slightly opened door. I cannot go back and close it I've used up all the energy left in me so I continue my journey to my bed

I jump on my bed then close my sees hoping to just fall asleep. Jason's look was all I was thinking of. Usually it would take me a week to overcome the monsters I see in a movies. But at this moment demonic nuns aren't in my mind. Should I try to talk to him tomorrow

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HI guys I am so sorry for this short chapter