Agony |Obikin

7.

I lay awake in bed, every time I had managed to get back to sleep for a second, I woke up from another nightmare. All alone. So I just lay awake on my bed, staring at the ceiling longing for Anakin.

Why did I long for Anakin? Why couldn't I deal with my loss alone? I had no idea. I was in a spot where I either longed for Anakin, or Satine.

I wanted one of them to hug me and tell me that I would be okay. I was squeezing a pillow pretending it was one of them. I just couldn't decide which one.

I was just laying there, hot and uncomfortable, but then shivering cold. I could feel the bags forming under my eyes as the night slowly dragged away, until it was early enough to get up.

I had given up on trying to sleep hours ago and I was exhausted. I dragged myself out of bed and started to get dressed.

After I got dressed I started to make breakfast for myself. In a few hours I would be leaving with Anakin and Ahsoka for Hoth. I was happy with how I left the situation with Anakin, but I didn't know if we were really on good terms.

He was shocked last night. Shocked. Because I had known about his and Padmé's relationship. It's not like they did such a good job hiding it.

As I ate my breakfast all I could think about was Anakin. Was he mad at me?  Did he still like me? I knew that I liked him, not only that, I needed him. I couldn't make it without him. But why him?

I made my way outside where they were loading the ship. Only Anakin, Ahsoka and I were going. This should be fun.

I watched as the ship was being loaded for a while until Anakin and Ahsoka joined me.

"Well you're up early." Anakin's said smirking as he put his arm on my shoulder and leaned against me.

I turned my head to face them and almost spoke.

"Woah!" Anakin exclaimed extracting his arm from my shoulder.

"With all due respect master, but did you get ANY sleep last night?" Ahsoka's voice was sarcastic, but concerned. Like Anakin's was.

"Obi-wan, you look exhausted!"

To be fair I was.

"I couldn't get much sleep last night." I said just trying to act as normal as possible. "I was a bit... distracted."

Anakin started to look at me, and I could tell he was upset. Not just that I told him I would be fine and I wasn't, but also because he had listened to me and hadn't checked on me.

"Will you be ok to go on a mission today?" Ahsoka was fully concerned now, she was kind and caring like that.

"I'll be fine, thank you Ahsoka." I replied. I looked over at Anakin who was still mad at me.

Before he could say anything we were called to our ship to board.

We boarded the ship. Anakin, obviously, was flying. We all sat down, Ahsoka sat next to Anakin and I sat behind them.

We made our way through the Coruscant traffic out to space. I always loved leaving Coruscant. It was my home, but always so loud, I loved leaving to go somewhere more peaceful and quiet.

We made our jump to hyperspace and Anakin and Ahsoka started talking, just how they always do. I was probably meant to be apart of the conversation, but I just couldn't focus.

I don't know what came over me. Maybe it was the hypnotism of hyperspace as we moved through it, maybe it was the soothing presence or soft voice of Anakin, but I drifted off to a nightmareless sleep.

***

"How long do you think it will be until he wakes up?" I heard Ahsoka ask Anakin as my eyes fluttered open.

"Doesn't matter, let him sleep. You saw how awful he looked before."

"He was really tired."

Turns out they were talking about me, I wondered how long I was asleep for?

"Oh look, sleeping beauty is up." Anakin didn't say, surprisingly it came out of Ahsoka.

"Huh? How long was I asleep?"  I was a little bit startled.

"Shh go back to sleep, we were trying to talk about you." Anakin said.

"Yes, yes, you're really tired and we do have a little bit longer." It sounded as if they were mocking me.

"And you are cute when you sleep." Said Anakin, he was joking, or at least I thought.

I saw Ahsoka look at him like what he said was absurd, but she just shook it off. I then went back to sleep.