The Unresolved Dilemma

9.

30th July,2015

The two newly added members in our trio is Rudra Singh and Cynthia R. Rudra is well heighted, gym boy. He is a stud. He had 8 ex girlfriends. He is Ranbir Kapoor of our college. Everytime he enters the college, a dramatic music starts in background. Bach na ae haseeno lo mein aa gaya here is haseeno means girls. Almost every girl senior or junior has crush on him. But he doesn't want to date because he wishes to enjoy his singlehood.

Cynthia is a cute girl with height almost equal to mine. She has those typical curls in her hair which made her more pleasing. She is like river of pure water for the drought facing people. She is the daughter of the police commissioner of the city. She is lovable and anyone who saw her had their mouth open with awww. These two new studs of our college were now a part of our trio. We all used to hangout together. Being a daughter of police commissioner, we used to enjoy the perks. Getting early entries, free passes for concerts and what not. Life was feeling great. We were living to our fullest until the day of 25th July,2015.

On this day,a lot of changes took place. Some friendships were broken and many secrets were revealed. The morning was usual. I picked Tanishka from her home. We all met at the college canteen. We were chilling out . Aksh was late today. He had to go to bank for some paperwork. He couldn't join us in the morning. Also he told us that he had some late classes and that we don't wait for him. By the noon, the sun was on our head, burning heat from all sides. I had a meeting for my literature club. So I was busy all afternoon in that club. Tanishka had some dance classes so she told me she would manage on her own and that I don't need to worry about that. Cynthia was a member of literature club too. My relation with Cynthia had grown a lot after we both became literature club member. She was ofcourse gorgeous and hot. But I always refrained myself from falling for her. I was committed with Tanishka and was hoping to prove it. That day Cynthia had worn a black crop top with backless design. A tight skinny jeans completed the Cynthia. She was looking way more hot and fabulous than usual. We were all discussing about how to make our literature club more famous, engage more students and ideas about our magazine. I can't help but stare at Cynthia. She was all compose and calm yet charming. She too got notion that I was staring at her. So she smiled at me and punched me to focus on the discussion.

Discussion was over after about an hour. All were leaving . I too packed my things and got ready to leave. But Cynthia stopped me saying that we need to decide the design for the magazine. I didn't want to stay because I knew I would do something stupid and I didn't want to ruin the friendship. But she insisted me to stay and I gave in. We started working on my Mac and we were so close ,I could even sense her breathing. I could even sense the blood flowing through her jugular vein and internal carotid arteries. During this closeness, there was power cut off. She started getting a little sweaty but it made her smell more pleasing and tempting. The drop from her forehead ran down through her right cheek and straight upto her neck. The atmosphere was tempting me to hold her tight and kiss her. We were so close that even light can't pass through it. Suddenly our eyes made contact and we both knew what we wanted. She came near and kissed on my lips gently. I grab her by waist and we started kissing each other passionately. She was all devoted to me. We cuddled for a while . The power was back on and we were back on our work. We didn't knew if someone had saw us doing all this. But we assured each other that no one knew about this.

Almost simultaneously during this time , the lecture of Aksh was over. He was heading towards his home. During this Tanishka was going for her dance classes. Tanishka was alone in the class ,maybe she was involved in some work or was just sitting there. Aksh was passing by ,he took a glance at the classroom and saw her. But couldn't make out if it was her. So he recited Bandar kya jane adark ka swad. The reply from the girl was Bandar ko ilachi pasand hai ,adark nahi. They both bursted into laughter. This was their go to insult . Tanishka was poor at dancing and Aksh used to be his teacher. The first day of the dance and Tanishka showed her moves which were way out of beats and were inappropriate as hell to the lyrics. This was story I was told about. Since then Aksh always used to mock her.

Now that he knew it was Tanishka he went her and sat down beside her. Tanishka was completing her assignment which was due next day. Aksh sat there and stared at her. He had that gleam in his eyes. A cup of coffee fell off on Tanishka while she tried to reach for her smartphone.. It fell right on her off shoulder t shirt and also on her jeans. Aksh immediately took out his handkerchief and started cleaning it. But tea was hot and it was burning her skin. So they went to washroom to use water. They went inside , Aksh on her feets cleaning Tanishka's tea stains while Tanishka standing there looking at Aksh. The power went off. Now there were two souls burning with passion and dirty desires and dark room . We all know what happens next. But this time, Rudra who was observing them all the time finally took snaps of their private activity. Rudra was on his way to Tanishka because he needed her help for the project. But when he approached the classroom from the backdoor he saw Tanishka and Aksh very close to each other. He saw them just after the tea incident. He is observing them since and now finally he took the pics of their private space. The pics were sent to me. The vibration of messages disturbed us. We were in middle of something very pleasuring yet legal. The vibration and notification tone thrown us down into potholes of realities from fantasy of clouds. We smiled at each other and started working on magazine.

I took out my phone and looked into the message. It read 10 msgs from Rudr@. I was surprised coz Rudra never used to message me. I opened the message and saw 10 pics waiting to be seen by me. It was only now matter of time that my world would be shattered. ........

What the hell just happened? The diary is unfinished. They were some torn pages and that's it. How can someone maintain diary for years and then just throw it incomplete?  For now it was my curiosity that wasn't allowing me to settle down. I stood up went to the kitchen and drank a glass of cold water. Instead of going to stomach the water directly to brain. My mind was calmed but it was not stable. I wanted the answers to how the story ends? Are they still friends in 2019? Did Rihan forgive Tanishka?  What was his reaction when he saw the photos? All sorts of questions swarmed in my head . From all corners of head ,a question or a doubt would pop up. I spent the afternoon sitting on couch and thinking how could I possibly find them? I saw an ad in a newspaper fews day earlier about a new computer repairing and mobile shop . The name of the shop now struck me it read 'Akshika'. I found hope in that it might be the shop of the characters in diary. I searched for the paper and found it looking at me from underneath the sofa. The advertisement read it was the biggest shop in the Gujarat and all the advanced and high technology were found at this place apart from mobile phones and other accessories.

I made up mind. I should once check it out. I could try maybe it's them or maybe its not them. There was constant battle again in my brain whether to go and complete the story or put it away and forget it as some happy conincidence.