The Unresolved Dilemma

5.

5th March,2015
10.00 pm

I was feeling low so I skipped the rest part yesterday. But I was in such traumatic condition. The question that troubled me was where were my best friends? Weren't they worried for me? Did they knew that I was lost or were they the one to plan this all?

Amidst such negative, I felt a cold breeze pass by me. Tanishka entered my room. She was flaunting her hair, her eye kajal was not in place ,there was tears in her eyes. She came to me and hugged me as a lost sailor does when he sees the land after endless sea journey. All my questions and all my doubts were melted in an instant. And I started singing in my gibbon brain which already had started to hop. She asked if I was ok and what happened with me for they only knew that I had some emergency and was taken to a hospital. I nodded as I was awestruck by her blazing eyes that hit my heart so perfectly. I gathered myself and told her the whole incident. She was dumbstruck and she apologized to me for the whole incident. She knew it might be her fault. But I assured her that it wasn't her fault. She gave me a sympathetic smile and sat beside me for another two hours. We talked and giggled about how the situation could have gone more wrong. We had some moments of our own. Then we had lunch and the trip was about to end. I thought my hard time was over but I didn't see another trouble smirking at me.

Before we were to board the bus, I went for a bath for I didn't had it since last two days.  I bathed whole heartly and was already feeling on the seventh heaven. But the situations took a drastic turn and all of sudden I was thrown into the Pataallok. After the bath I tried to reach for my towel and clothes that I hanged on the hanger. But to my utter surprise I couldn't find the towel or any of my clothes. My heart was pounding hard. I wasn't able to breath well.  I knew I won't be able to take this shit now. First the photo cum sadist incident and now this. This all the more proved my point my decision was wrong. My legs gave up. I couldn't stand so I sat inside the bathroom for about 20minutes ,crying, laughing and doing all kind of crazy shits. After about 20minutes I heard someone coming towards the bathroom. I called out for help but my voice started to break. Somehow the receiver heard me and it was a She. The girl replied who was I and what did I need help for. I told her about the situation but her voice got me thinking that I knew that voice . I knew after a brief pause,she was Tanishka. She told me to come out and get the towel. I told her I can't do that I was totally naked. But she was in playful mood. And I couldn't take the chance of losing this probably last chance of surviving the situation. So I gathered all my strength and came out hiding the parts I need to hide. She took out her phone and started clicking the photos. Wait ,she wasn't only one there,it was a group of 15 to 20 people staring at a naked man. All laughed at me and giggled about me.

Tanishka came close and wrapped me around in a towel as if I had been through some fire incident. I quickly went towards my room, tanishka was behind me. She came into my room for apologizing and told she didn't knew I was there stucked and naked. I remember she emphathized the word naked. I was wet and she came near me to take her rubber band to tie her hairs. She came so close that it was only atomic difference between us. And then it happened. Our eyes meet and we didn't knew when our lips came so close.

I was all wet,the scent of musk was flowing from me. My lips dripped . The two pairs meet,one on other, so moist ,so passionate. It felt as some person thirsty of 10 days drinks the water and clinches the glass. I holded her like that and I had felt almost all the flavour in every part of her lips. Her hands playing with my hairs and our bodies getting all steamy hot. We were savouring each second. But a voice broke this all. Someone made a last call for the bus and it made us to come back to our senses. We smiled at each other and went down .

We didn't speak for next 6 hours . Total silence prevailed between us. I started to think if it was just a fling. Or whether it was in heat of the moment thing .  Or did she actually meant it. Battle ground was set with all sorts of questions and arguments. And after a howl of war ,it started to fight. I acted as nothing happened infront of Aksh. Aksh, who hasn't met me since I returned to the guest house. We were having normal chat and he asked if my trip was going fine and he mentioned somewhere about some sadist activity. He showed some images but all I could see was culprit. The culprit of the crime that was done to me. I knew he was the one who did it. I was sure about it. For he would go on mentioning about sadist activites and it's consequences,also about how his friend got caught in bathroom naked by others. This all made my doubts clear and I hailed Aksh as the culprit to my events.

But what about the other battle which was on in my mind ground. I couldn't talk to her because it was all so weird . I could just look at her and smile. At this moment,while writing this,she sits in front of me but we can't exchange verbal emotions. We are just smiling ,the smile that we both had in that moment.