*Emilia*
"Are you cold sweetie ?" LZ looks at me as I rub my arm. We are watching dirty dancing now.He is always so sweet and thoughtful. "Just a tiny bit, nothing to worry about".
"Well here is slightly chilly.. Nick could we have that blanket". He points to one hanging over the back of the couch and Nick throws it. "Thanks man".
I was honestly disappointed that Matt bailed tonight.. I am not really buying his excuse.. it's like he has .. pulled away lately.. so I have spend more and more time with LZ.. Nina is with Nick all the time.. and Pilar and Zac, even though they claim nothing is going on, are almost even worse.. but I don't mind.. LZ is fun to be around.
"Here you go Milla.. we can't have you freezing". He spread out the blanket over me.
"Thanks LZ". I lift the corner. "You said you were chilly to.. we can share".
He slips under the blanket, smiling softly at me. "Sure".
I am not sure why this make my heart beat slightly weird. I mean we are just sharing a blanket while watching a movie.. totally innocent and okay.. friends.. then why do I kinda feel like a teenager ? Hiding under a blanket with my boyfriend, having my parents in the room.
"Better ?" I glance over at him.
He turns his face and gives me one of those cute smiles. "Yeah.. it's a nice blanket.. cosy".
"Yeah.. it's nice.. the blanket I mean". Dammit.. way to sound like a complete idiot Emilia.
I try to focus on the movie.. but my mind keeps slipping.. to be honest this trip has made me think about me and Matt.. I mean I love him.. I think I do at least.. but.. I am not sure if we are.. growing apart.. it is like I have started to focus on the things missing.. the things I kinda hoped for that .. well is not there.
My eyes are drawn to LZ again.. he is laughing softly at something on screen.. he has the cutest laugh, it makes his eyes and nose crinkle in an adorable way. Do I find him handsome ? Hmm I mean if I try to be totally objective I guess Matt is better looking.. Nick and Zac too.. but there is something.. so sweet about him.. something that makes me feel relaxed and good in his company.
I haven't even realised that I have moved closer to him before his hand brushes against mine as he moves slightly. It sends a tingling feeling up my arm and I get a feeling he feels the same as he pulls his hand away and look at me with wide eyes. "Oh sorry".
"No problem.. no harm done". I try to smile.. feeling my heart beat like crazy.
He turn his attention back to the tv, but I notice how his chest kinda moves faster. And for some reason I instinctively know that his hand has not moved away, but is laying right next to mine.
It is like some magnetic force I don't really understand, making me slowly move my hand.. like it's not on purpose, till I feel his hand right next to mine.. I stay there.. holding my breath.. waiting to see his reaction.. again feeling like a silly teenager.
He doesn't move his hand away, and I breathe out slowly, relaxing.. which kinda press my hand a bit more against his. Warmth is spreading from this small contact and through my arm.
Then his hand move and at first I think he will move it away, but instead he kind move his pinkie so it is crossed with mine.. it feels so intimate in some way, sitting here in the dark.. two fingers wound together.
I glance around, feeling that everyone must be able to see what is happening under the blanket. But Nina and Nick are all snuggled up together and focused on the movie. Zac is being silly, making Pilar giggle.. no one seems to care what we are doing.
This is wrong.. I know it.. but I can't stop myself.. the feeling of doing something forbidden yet innocent has my heart beating up a storm.
This time his hand moves first.. his fingers softly caressing my hand, making me close my eyes for a moment and breathe in deeply. I can't remember the last time Matt made me feel this giddy.. Maybe that's what's wrong.. we lost the excitement.
I glance at him, and LZ turns his face at the same time, our eyes meeting.. he gives me a small smile and I feel my cheeks blush. His hand softly squeezing mine. This is okay right ? It's nothing really.. just friends.. right ?
*Zac*
"Seriously Zac you are like the only person in the world who can dance sitting down". Pilar makes a face at me. "I bet you dance laying down too".I can't keep in a chuckle, winking at her. "Oh wouldn't you like to know darling".
She slap my arm rolling her eyes. "Yikes Zac.. don't be such a.. man.. that wasn't what I meant and you know it".
"Hard for me to be a woman". I shrug. "Sorry hon, you kinda walked right into that one.. how could I not ?"
"No rule say you have to be a cheeky bastard at any given moment". She huff at me, but her eyes tell me she isn't really angry.. we have kinda reached a place where I can joke with her and she knows it's not serious.. but it has taken a lot of talks and some outbursts from her when she took a joke to serious.. I think she kinda trust me by now.
I cock my head looking at her. "But you love it.. admit you love it".
"I hate it.. remember". But she is giggling and shaking her head in that 'you are impossible but I still like you' kinda way.
We have not been anything but friendly since that.. almost incident.. but I have to admit that I find myself more and more attracted to her.. I know the other guys think I am crazy and that she is a total ice queen.. I even know that I should be looking for someone who has healed past wounds.. not someone half broken and with scars.. but well.. it's not really a choice is it ?
"You are doing it again Zac". She scrunch up her nose. "Looking at me in.. that way".
"What way darling.. like I like you ?" I chuckle.
She half roll her eyes. "Yeah.. stop it.. it's annoying".
"Sorry darlin.. can't do that.. I do like you so you just have to live with it". I grin at her, but my inside kinda knots up, wondering if I will ever truly break through her walls.
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FanfictionPilar and her cousin Nina is from Argentina.. they have teamet up with their other cousin Emilia and her canadian boyfriend Matt, taking a roadtrip through America.. They stop at Wyldwood near Austin in Texas to visit Matt's cousin Nick and his fri...