In quarantine

Choises and pink lip gloss

*LZ*
"The sunset really is beautiful out here". Emilia say as we walk side by side on one of the paths. She has taken my hand and .. Well I have no problem with it, at all.

"Hmm it's very beautiful around here.. even more so.. now". I half mumble, feeling my cheeks heat up slightly. I was never good at this.. Being smooth and charming, that's more Zac and Nick's thing.. Maybe it comes with being tall and handsome.

She bites her lip looking down. "Oh stop being such a charmer chiquito.. you are making this so hard for me".

"I know I am not supposed to say this.. but.. I am glad I do". I quickly hold up my hand. "No pressure.. no .. 'you need to chose'.. but I want you to know you have options".

"And what are those ?" She stop and turn to look at me.

I mirror her movement. "Well.. you can forgive Matt.. continue what you had.. you can also end it.. be alone.. or.. you can chose someone else.. someone who would never hurt you like that".

"And who should that be LZ ?" She is kinda tilting her head, looking at me.

This is it, I should tell her shouldn't I ? I should come clean and confess that I am madly in love with her and I think she should dumb Matt and be mine forever.. okay that might scare her a bit.. but I should definitely tell her about my feelings.

"Emelia ?!" I am trying to find the right words to say, without being pushy.

"Yeah LZ ?" She looks up at me, kinda holding her breath.

I feel how my phone vibrates several time in my pocket, and the nerves get the best of me. "Hmm someone is posting a lot".

"Oh.. they are ?" She looks kinda confused and I do feel like an idiot, blowing my chance of like that.

I pull out my phone. "Hmm Zac is live and Marshall posted something.. oh the puppies going to sleep.. look cute".

She lean in to look at my phone. "Yeah.. they are adorable".

"Oh and Nick and Nina went for a sunset paddle.. great pics". I say to myself.. I have to say I am a bit jealous of my friend. Not for having Nina, but for having his love so openly returned.

She reads Nick caption to a clip of the sunset, then the camera move down to a smiling Nina. "The wyldwood sunset, my new awesome paddleboard and my best girl.. what more can a man want... Aww that so sweet and romantic.. see that's the problem.. Matt never did anything like that.. not even in the beginning".

"I would do that.. every day.. unless that's to much". Shit I really said that, Well no going back here. "I would do that for you.. if..".

"If I choose you over Matt.. is that what you are trying to say ?" She has stepped closed and one of her hands are now resting on my chest.

I swallow, my head is feeling rather light. "Well.. I guess.. yeah.. I know it's a be thing to say.. but I really like you.. I am falling for you fast.. and I can't really hide it".

"Oh .. LZ.. I am not sure what to say". She is looking up at me and suddenly she reach up, pressing her lips softly to mine and I swear my heart skipped at least 2 beats.

My arms wrap around her, holding her close to me. Her lips are so soft and taste even more sweet than I could ever imagine. This is heaven to me and to be honest I don't want it to ever end.

But of course we hear someone coming closer... Voices and footsteps, making us jump apart, both slightly out of breath.

"Oh hi LZ.. Emilia". Nick say as he and Nina comes around the bend, hand in hand.

"Hi". I give them a smile, even if part of me want to tell them to fuck off. "Back from your evening paddle".

Nick smiles, looking lovingly at Nina. "Yeah.. we talked about like trying to get everyone in on a game or something.. want to join ?"

"Sure.. right LZ ?" Emilia gives me an look that says sorry.

I nod. "Sure.. lets go ask the rest".

*Zac*
I know I am smiling like an idiot when I go to sit back down. Okay, it's settled then. Not sure why I had felt such a need to kiss her right there and then, but.. I just had to, Luckily she did not slap me.

"Sorry guys.. I am back now.. let's see". I look on the screen.. it is filled with people asking what I am doing, coming with more or less crazy guesses, but also several being like 'uhm I think he is kissing someone' and 'sorry but I hear kissing'.

Ignore these questions of course, I am open when I talk to my fans.. but I was never much for talking about my love life. "Just .. handling something that needed .. handling".

Pilar looks at me raising one eyebrow, and I can't help smiling at her. Making her make a face and mouth. 'Liar, liar pants on fire'.

"What needed to be handled Zac.. your hair ? Cause it looks like someone has just pulled it.. a lot". I read on the screen, making me pull up the hood of my hoodie. "My hair kinda need a trim.. I run my hand through it and it's everywhere".

Pilar looks about to fall of the chair, trying to keep in her laughter.

"So pink lipgloss.. is that normal for you ?" I look at the screen. "I am not getting it.. oh me .. Uhm no.. I mean I not wearing that.. of course.. I just.. drank a pink.. smoothie.. yeah that's it".

I glare at Pilar who is clutching her stomach and biting her own hand by now. She could have warned me.

"Okay any questions". I say putting on a smile, and ignoring all these comments about what I was doing and with who. Okay so kissing her might have been a lapse of judgement.

Emilia shows up and ask Pilar softly if she has a moment. Nick comes over, putting a hand on my shoulder. "Games .. ten.. fifteen minutes.. you in ?"

"Sure, just wrapping this up". I smile at him.

"Great.. nice lip gloss by the way". He grin walking of and I really want to kick him.

I turn back to the screen, at the same time keeping an eyes on Pilar and Emilia, I am happy to see them talk. "So.. we are going to do some gaming here, before heading to bed.. so I better wrap this up.. but see all of you soon.. love you all.. bye".

Closing the live a consider for a moment if I should delete it, but I know that will just seem more suspicious.. so I post it. Then I get up, seeing Pilar and Emilia hug.

I walk over, putting an arm around each of them. "Happy to see you got it talked through.. ready for some games ?"

"Sure.. but I am gonna win.. you know.. unlucky in love.. lucky in games". Emilia say, but she is smiling, clearly happy about their talk too.