The Pouring Tears Of The Evening Sky

Chapter 28

How painful was it to be fooled? Very painful. As you expect genuine love was given to you but it was all an act. Now i get it why people who got cheated on has major trust issues.

Never did i imagine that i'll be so inlove with someone like him. He showed how soft he is to me. He's caring and tender way on holding me was full of love. He made me feel that i was really one of a kind like what he said.

But unfortunately, things happened. I was fooled.  Iyon na ata ang pinaka masakit na nangyari sakin. Para akong batang pinangakuan na paglalaruin sa labas matapos matulog sa hapon pero hindi parin palalabasin pagkagising. I never thought love can make you feel butterflies in your stomach, but also piercing knives in your heart. It feels great but it hurts like hell.

"Zei, gising na..."

Unti unti kong iminulat ang mga mata ko at tumambad sakin ang mukha ni Stella. Naka apron siya at ang buhok ay naka bun. May kaunting butil pa ng pawis sa noo niya.

I groaned and hugged the pillow beside me. I burried my face on the pillow and i heard her chuckle. Maya maya pa ay tinanggal niya ang comforter na nakatakip sa katawan ko hanggang sa ilong ko.

"Nand'yan si Evan, Zei, gising na...."

Hindi ko siya pinansin at niyakap lalo ang unan ko. Antok na antok talaga ako dahil marami akong tinapos kagabi at nag-usap pa kami ni Kuya. Iba talaga ang antok na nararamdaman ko kaya ayoko pa talagang tumayo.

Narinig ko ang pintuan na dahan dahang bumukas at baka si Evan nga 'yan.

"Sige na, Stella..." si Evan nga.

Narinig ko ang yabag ng paa niya at ilang segundo ang lumipas lumubog na ng dahan dahan ang kabilang bahagi ng kama ko.

"Zei.." tinapik niya ang braso ko.

"Mmm..." ungol ko. 

"Wake up sleepy head..." he tried to pull the pillow i'm hugging away from me, "...May pupuntahan tayo 'di ba?". 

I suddenly remembered our appoitment with Mr. Inares, a businessman. 

Napabalikwas ako ng bangon at agad na kinuha ang tuwalyang nakasabit sa may upuan na katapat ng kama ko. Naiiling na tumawa si Evan dahil sa pagmamadali ko. Pinandilatan ko siya bago pumasok sa banyo at napanguso lang siya.

It has been, what? 9 years? Almost 9 years after i left the country to study abroad. I took up a special program from my previous school so i could continue my last year of SHS in Cambridge, Massachusetts. I studied for my last senior year and also for the Harvard University Entrance Exam. 

I forced my dad to send me in U.S, he heard of what happened and supported me in what i wanted. I took up Business Administration and graduated as Magna Cumlaude, just like dad wanted since i was little. He didn't force me to take it, it's my decision. Gusto niyang kunin ko ang kursong gusto ko daw.

But it seems like i lost my sense of direction. I don't know what i want to take up, what i want to do and what my dream is. I just followed dad's plans from the very start. 

It was like caging myself again.

The showerhead started pouring out water. It reminded me of something again, or someone. I smiled bitterly and started to rub soap on my body.

Kamusta na kaya siya?

Dinama ko ang bawat patak ng tubig at naalala kong nagmamadali pala ako kaya binilisan ko lalo ang paliligo ko. Lumabas ako ng banyo ng naka-robe, pagkalabas ko ay wala na si Evan. Agad akong nagpunta sa damitan ko para kumuha ng formal na damit, since we're meeting a businessman.