"Mask" [a k.t.h. ff (BTS)]

CHAPTER - 41

YOU ARE THE CAUSE OF MY EUPHORIA.

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As you slammed your bathroom door behind you, quickly lighting up a cigarette to try and calm your anxiety and then called up a familiar number on the phone and pressed it to your ear, waiting for a response.

"Hello?", the person at the other side of the line replied.

"Hey, I need help."

"What's up?", Jack asked, concerned at the way your voice was trembling.

"I messed up Jack. I messed up bad.", you trembled as you called yourself stupid over and over again in your head. "Just wait there... I'll be down by your place in 15.", Jack said as you heard the clutter of him grabbing his keys and rushing to the door of his house. You felt bad for asking him to come in a hurry and making it seem like an emergency... But you'd never felt this way about anyone before and neither had any guy ever loved you without having an eye on your money and wealth. 

You walked over to your closet and opened a drawer containing little pieces of your memory, making you smile. You picked up a polaroid of you and Tae laughing at the camera, unconsciously, rubbing your fingers gently over the boys face. Suddenly, your phone rang, catching your attention. 

"Hello?", you spoke as you fiddled with the polaroid in your hand and placed it back in the drawer.

"Ella, What happened?"

"What do you mean 'What happened?' Jihyun... I felt a bit sick and I went back home. That's all.", you lied through your teeth. 

"Yeah? So why did Taehyung come back from meeting with you as if he'd just seen a ghost?", your friend questioned with suspicion in her voice. You sighed, knowing there was no point in hiding the truth form her, she would end up finding out anyway. You lay down on your bed as you told her the entire story before you got bashed with her comments.

"Why would you do that Ella? Everyone sees the way you look at him and the way he looks at you. It's like we don't even exist around you!!!", your friend exclaimed getting hyper, making you feel even more guilty than you already were.

"I don't know how I feel about him Jihyun-ah... I never planned things to go this way. I mean, I never even expected him to like someone like me. No one's ever loved me for just my personality.", you sniffled, holding back on tears that threatened to spill. You scoffed at how overdramatic you were getting over a boy.

"Elena Wood. You are the funniest, coolest and the smartest girl I've ever met. Not just that, I think you're adorable too! Heck ask anyone out of Bangtan. They all think you're so cute and pretty."

"They do?", you asked, eyes widening at this new piece of information.

"Ofcourse silly. Now I'm gonna come over to your place and we're gonna have a girl's pajama party. We can talk about how you feel about him and fix this. It's never too late Ella."

"Wait no!", you panicked as you got up from your bed.

"What? What happened?"

"You can't come over to my place.", you said before quickly adding, "I'm not really from a well-off family, I'm a bit insecure about my place you know.", You said, trying to put as much emotion in your voice as you could.

"Ella... Well if you're not comfortable with it, we can always meet up at my place. What say?", Jihyun said and was about to say bye and cut the call when almost exactly did Jack come bursting into the room, "OMG are you ok?!"

"Shit shit shit", you cursed as you aggressively shushed the now confused boy, pointing repeatedly at your phone.

"Ella, who's that?"

"Oh just my cousin haha.", your face reflected the cringe on Jack's face from how fake that sounded.

"Ella are you seeing someone else?", Jihyun gasped.

"Oh god no... He's engaged for Christ's sake.", you said quickly, sighing with relief as she seemed to have bought that. "Almost for a moment sounded like the Math dude not gonna lie.", Jihyun laughed as you nervously chuckled.

"I'll be right there Jiyun-ah.", you said bye and cut the call before facing a very confused and furious Jack.

"I left my bed for this shit and you're not even dying.", Jack commented, hands on hips as he stared at you for an explanation. You sighed as you repeated the story that you had just told over the phone.

"Oh god Ella... This is amazing!", Jack exclaimed as he pulled you into a hug, "You like him dude, you like him so fricking much, I'm so mad at you for pushing him away but I'm so happy for you too ughh.".

"I do...?, you questioned his sanity as he jumped up and down on the bed.

"Ofcourse you do!"

"What about my plan?", you asked as you shifted your eyes down, suddenly embarrassed that you wanted to get close the boys and then break their hearts.

"Tell me something Ell.", Jack said as he got serious, crouching down to your eye level on the bed, "Is it worth it?"

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[AUTHOR'S NOTE - ]

WITH COVID AND EVERYTHING GOING ON AT THE MOMENT... I HOPE YA'LL ARE SAFE AND HEALTHY. NEVER HESITATE TO REACH OUT TO ME IF YOU JUST WANT SOMEONE TO TALK TO <3