Stirring The Soul

Chapter 16

So far, the session has been both satisfying and torturous in equal measure for the wrong reasons. Being in such close vicinity to Jungkook but not being able to touch him is a cruel irony. He hasn't made any further attempts to speak to you after telling him not to, although he looks like he wants to. However, the opportunity can't be avoided any more when you are told to face each other to do paired poses. You hold each other's hands and place your feet against each other's as instructed. "I guess the only time I can hold your hands now is during yoga. I'll be sure to come every week then," sulks Jungkook. You don't reply immediately. It's so nice just to look at his glistening face, strong arms, and cute feet. Holding his hands is an added bonus. You will be disappointed when you have to eventually let go.

"Jungkook, you look tired. Have you been getting enough sleep?" you ask. You can't think of anything else to say. He smirks before replying, "What do you think, Noona?" But quickly adds, so as not to upset you, "I can't believe we're both at the same yoga studio at the same ungodly hour. Maybe it's the Universe sending us a message."

You actually smile. This is typical Jungkook; he always says the right thing. Soon, you are told to unlink and lay down on your mat for 'Shiv Asana', indicating the end of the practice. You spread out your legs and arms, as told by Jason, and end up touching Jungkook's fingers and toes. Rather than moving them away though, you hold onto his fingers. He also doesn't pull away. It feels nice to lay there making even this light contact. Maybe the universe was sending you a message. When the session is over, you tell Jungkook to wait for you at the other end of the room while you run over to Mia and Layla. "Girls, you go ahead without me, I've just had a text from my Headteacher. Apparently, Ofsted might be coming for a surprise inspection tomorrow and we all need to go into school to prep," you lie a bit too easily.

"Oh no, I was going to treat you to a Starbucks as a 'thank you' for doing this," Mia says.

"Don't worry, you will definitely be making this up to me, but not today," you say, accompanying them out to make sure they leave. Once they're out of sight, you run back to Jungkook and walk with him out of the building. "Where are we going?" he asks.

"Back to mine, we need to talk," you reply assertively. He looks at you surprised, "Really? Have you made a decision?"

"Let's talk at the apartment," you say, surprised at your decisiveness.

"Yes Ma'am!"

You don't say anything to each other during the taxi ride back as you know all will be discussed in a few minutes. When you arrive, you run up the stairs, apartment key in hand, not wanting to waste any time. Once inside, you pull Jungkook in, close the door, and slam his body against the adjacent wall, all in one fell swoop. You draw his face to yours and kiss him with furious passion. All the pent-up sexual tension from the last hour is manifesting itself now. Jungkook returns your kisses with equal fervour. As you lean into his athletic, albeit sweaty, body, you place your hands on his chest, exploring every part of his torso over his top. He grabs hold of your waist tightly, making sure you don't pull away like last time. As the ferocity of your kisses continues, he grabs one of your buttocks and raises you upwards. You feel his bulge getting bigger, so you slow down with your kisses. You don't want to take this further just yet.

"Noona?" Jungkook asks you worriedly. Breathing heavily, you reply, "Sorry for pouncing on you like that JK. Not seeing you for the last 36 hours has been really tough."

"Then why did you stop?" Jungkook still looks worried. Caressing his face, you say, "It's not that I want to stop, but we'd better talk first. There's plenty of time to do what we want to later." You smile at him teasingly. Now that you've made up your mind about each other, your confidence is growing. You lead him to the sofa where you make yourselves comfortable. The first thing you say to allay his fears, is "JK, hopefully, you've realised that I don't need any more time to think about us. I want to make a go of this with you." He hugs you instantly and keeps you in his embrace for a few minutes. Eventually, he pulls away to ask, "What made you change your mind?"

"My mind never had to change, it had just wavered there for a bit, but when I saw you today, I felt so happy just to have you next to me. This is not a passing crush, I think this may end up being something real and meaningful."

You are careful about what you say to Jungkook as this is only the beginning of your journey together. You are reminded of Mark and how life can be unpredictable.
"Noona, I had been so lost since Friday. Even Tae and Jin hyungs called me the other day and could tell I was so depressed," he says. "I didn't tell them about us though, don't worry," he hastily adds. You feel bad for making him suffer like that. He holds your chin and says, "God, you're so sexy. And you're smart and funny. I've never met anyone like you. And what were you trying to do to me during yoga?!"

"Me? I could ask you the same question! Who gave you permission to look this hot? I don't know how I held my tree pose with you distracting me like that."

"Noona, all joking aside, I have a serious question. Why this t-shirt and pants? Weren't you interested in Jason like the others were?"
You know he's teasing so you reply in kind, "if I'd known you were going to be there I'd have reconsidered this outfit, but having said that, being a Sunday morning, I highly doubt I would have dressed any different, even for you Jeon Jungkook." He laughs heartily in his usual manner; mouth open and head thrown back. Oh my God, that neck.

Then he looks at you earnestly and says, "Noona. What about Mark? You said he was your emotional baggage. I don't want to make you forget him or suffer because of me. I just want to be there for you and with you."

"JK, I'm not sure I'll ever get over Mark as he was a big part of my life, but that doesn't mean my heart doesn't have space for you. I've not felt like this about anyone since Mark passed,"