New World

Chapter 10

Previously: 'Ouch,that hurt is she scared of me? No it can't be,she just had a nightmare it must be that,she needs someone to comfort her I have to try again and if that doesn't maybe I'll try to go get Quinn or Aaron or even Kayden cause I don't know what to do here,they would what to do right? I can't lose Cora,I may not remember anything about myself but first memories are with her the first friendly face I saw was hers the first person to care about was her I can't lose her,I may have not known her for long but she's important,seeing her in pain breaks my heart.'

I tried to touch her again but this time she didn't flinch in fact she pulled into a hug and cried into my shoulder sucking my fur but I didn't care I stroked her head.

"Shhh,everything fine now Cora your safe,it was just a nightmare,you're gonna be just fine."I continued saying reassuring words to her in a soft voice and soon she fell asleep hugging me.

I don't know what happened but somehow have me in her arms seemed to calm her down and I was happy with that.

I woke up it was still dark no sign of light kinda like life feeling shaken and kinda sick I went to my bag looking for pills but I didn't have them I was supposed to buy them but I didn't,oh well looks like I'm gonna have to deal with trauma the old fashioned way,deal with my problems and trauma the head on and face the demons inside and the darkness I try pretending it doesn't get to me but after 8 years of someone calling 'Useless' 'ugly' 'Whore' 'Little slut' it starts to sink but after I left I tried to shake those feelings off but it was too hard back then when the wounds were still fresh every time I closed my eyes I would see my torture replaying in my head,I couldn't afford a therapist so I handled it on my own but it isn't what you see on the outside that's true,on the outside I'm fun,loving,out going,sassy but on the inside I'm scared,miserable sometimes numb.

I told myself that I should fake it till I make it but it isn't that easy,there had been several times when I can't I just can't I'm just so fucking tired of life,times when I have that knife to my wrist the demons inside just telling to finish it already but I don't I hold on hoping no praying that I get a better day in this fuck up thing they call life so I hold cause I believe in light even the darkest of days so I'll hold on till I've found my way out of my cave of misery and see the sunlight again and bet me I'm gonna bask in it.

The thought of happiness brought a smile to my face I wish I had it already though-my thoughts were cut off by voice.

"Cora are you okay?"Jasper said in a soft voice.

"Yeah,I'm fine."I said but there was no emotion in my voice it was just cold.

'I hope he leaves it at that cause I vulnerable at this moment at I feel like if he asks again in that soft voice I might crack all my walls I built all these year were crumbling and to be honest,I'm tired-I'm tired of the strong façade I keep isn't the real me,the real me is broken the real me shattered the real is damaged good the real me uses make up to cover all her scars cause I didn't want people to pity me,those looks of pity people give doesn't help it just makes me feel worse when you think you understand me but you don't,my wall was crumbling and soon it would collapse.'

"Cora,I know that's a lie,you're hurting please tell me,don't die in silence,I care about you,I may not have know you for very long but I care about you,my first memories were with you the first face I saw was you,the first voice I heard was you,the first laugh I heard was you,the first one to give a shit about me was you,you could have pushed me away and escaped by yourself an left me,you could have killed me instantly there but you didn't,Cora you're a part of me please let me in,seeing you in pain hurts it hurts like fire burning inside me,I haven't known you long but I feel like I have known you from my birth,saying this to you is hard but I'm opening up to you so please open up to me don't shut me out."Jasper said his voice shaky with emotion.

BOOM! Like that my walls collapsed my years of training was broken by some griffin I met in an anime world which I'm stuck in,my walls fell apart because a griffin that poured out his emotions to me and for the first time in forever I felt loved cared for wanted,I felt human not like some dog,I felt that light is my darkness grow a little bit brighter.

"Cora I understand you're hurting but I wanna to help you let me in,but if you're not ready yet then fine I'll waiting till when you're ready,I love you Cora I love like a sister,we may have just met but we are connected I can feel it and I'll be there for you when all others aren't know that for a fact."He said his voice full of disappointment.

'Someone loves,Jasper he loves me like a sister no one that loved was still alive but no I do,I've someone I love like a brother,I'm not alone I have someone,I have him,Yeah sure he's not human so what I have a human uncle who hates me and treats me like shit so I don't care.'

He looked disappointed and turned away his ear hanging low.

"Why?"I asked in a whisper not sure he had heard me a tear slipped from my eye.

He turned to me hopped off the bed and came to the windowsill.

"Why what Cora?"He asked gently like if he spoke to loud I'd shatter.

"Why Jasper? Why did life have to be so cruel why did people have to be so heartless cold do horrible things to their own family? Why do the people you love the most have to leave you?"I asked my voice louder and shaky.

"What do you mean who did that to you who left you?"He asked uncertain.

"Jasper my parents the one and only people who loved me more than anything were murdered everyone thinks they died but they were murdered."I said tears cascading down my face.

"What do mean they were murdered by who ok Cora calm down and tell me everything from the beginning."Japer said in his must calming voice,

I took a few deep breaths and wiped my tears.

"Ok,I was a very happy child my mom and dad loved me more than life itself,"I paused walking to my bag to get a picture of my parents from my bag,I carried around with me cause it helped calm me down when I had panic attacks,I held the picture and showed it to him, "these were parents happy energetic people my mom was loving,caring.fierce and strong and my dad was fun,goofy,strong and boyish or childish as my mom called him,we were so happy but then boom calamity everything was taken away from me all in one night,I'll tell the true story and what people happened,my parent were going to the movies but they never made it to the movies their car was crush at railway crossing by a train because their brakes failed that's what everyone thinks happened but no that's not the truth what actually happened was my uncle killed them he...............

Cliffhanger,hehe.

How did Cora's uncle kill her parents? What did you think of this chapter I want your honest opinion? Should I write this book on inkitt? I need your thoughts.

Random question: what's your favorite thing to do when you're bored?

Story question: who's your favorite character so far and what do you think should keep doing pov changes or just focus on Cora? I want your opinions

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Till next time be yourself,stay beautiful an safe.

-_inkheart_13. Oh and sorry about the short Chapter please don't be mad I need to sleep and I wrote it at night sorry.