Orochimaru's Creation (KakashiXReader)

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I don't know how long I sat in my shower before I heard knocking on the bathroom door.

"(Y/n)? ," Jiraya spoke with a hint of worry.

I quickly shut off the shower, wrapped myself in a towel, and opened my door. "I just needed a minute to myself," I walked past him and into my closet.
I closed the door behind me and put on some clean clothes. A giant t-shirt and clean underwear was all I needed. I stepped out of my closet to a Jiraya deep in thought.

I couldn't help but ask, "Where's Kakashi?" He smirked, "Your lover boy went to go get your favorite from Ichiraku"
I glared at him, "you know just as well as I do; that he's not mine anymore."

"(Y/n)-."

I held up my hand, "not right now please."

He grimaced and changed the subject. "(Y/n). There's no way you're okay. After what you told us in Tsunade's office.. there's just no way."

I wanted to give him a sad smile, "I never said I was okay Jiraya."

He looked at me with pure sadness", (y/n)-."

I interrupted him, "Jiraya.. do you," I stumbled over my words before I finally got them out. "Jiraya. Am I a monster?"

In the blink of an eye, I was wrapped in his arms. I didn't hug him back but he stayed with his arms wrapped around me. "You're not a monster (y/n). You did what you had to, to survive."

I didn't move out of his embrace, I just leaned back enough to look into his eyes, "I didn't have to eat him. I wanted to," the last 3 words we're barely a whisper but I knew he still heard me.

He didn't speak anymore; he just rubbed my hair and held me.

Fuck why can't I just cry.

We heard a throat clear from my doorway. We both stepped away from each other to see Kakashi holding our food with a slightly angered look in his eye.

I felt a pang of guilt; but honestly I needed that hug. Even if I couldn't bring myself to return it. Besides, he was taken.

"I brought your favorite (y/n). I figured it'd taste better than-", he stopped talking when I glared at him. His look changed to a slightly scared one.

Was he afraid of me now?

Before I could say anything Jiraya spoke up, "come on! Let's go eat at the table." They both walked out and I followed right behind them.

Dinner was awkward to say the least. No one spoke; all you could hear was me devouring my bowl before they even made a dent in theirs.

Jiraya chuckled, "I don't know if I'm scared of impressed."

I rolled my eyes, "don't start jiraiya. That was my first real meal in months."

He rubbed the back of his neck, "Right. Sorry shorty."

My insides felt warm at the sound of my nickname. At least that's one person who sees me in the same light.

I stood and took my stuff to the trash," sleep wherever you guys please. I'll leave my door open so you don't have to worry about me." We all said goodnight and I headed back to my room.

~Kakashi's POV~

Hearing what she had been through literally tore through my soul. How she made it through the whole story without breaking down was actually terrifying. I know I was seeing Hanare now; but seeing her not moving out of Jiraya's touch made me feel.. jealous. I had no right; but I wanted to be the one to hold her like that.

"Earth to Kakashi," I was immediately snapped out of my thoughts by Jiraya.

"Sorry. You were saying?"

He shook his head, "you go to the guest room and get sleep. I'll wake you in a few."

Before I could say no, he spoke up again, "you need to give her space Kakashi. She may be void of any emotion right now; but I know she was bothered by seeing you with Hanare. I'd say go talk to her, but I don't know if she's ready for that yet."

I looked down and nodded, "You're probably right." I stood and told him goodnight as I walked to the guest room.
Since I had to walk past (y/n)'s room; I decided to check on her. She was already asleep; clinging to her pillow for dear life. She looked so peaceful. I leaned down and kissed her forehead gently. I whispered to her, "I'm sorry (y/n). Please forgive me."

She sighed in her sleep and I quickly left the room. A part of me couldn't wait for my shift to watch her sleep. I had missed her more than she knows.

~Jiraya's POV~

I couldn't even be my usual self in this atmosphere. I felt bad for (y/n).

I walked to (y/n)'s room a little bit after Kakashi went to bed.
She was sweating; her pillows and blanket were on the floor. I would've woke her myself but she immediately sat up gasping for air. Even after a nightmare there was barely any emotion shown.

I sat in front of her on the bed, "are you okay (y/n)?"

She took a few more deep breaths before saying, "water please," hoarsely.

I was back in a flash with a glass of water that she graciously chugged down. She sat the empty glass on her bedside table and laid back down. "I'm sorry if I disturbed you. It seems I can't even escape everything in my sleep."

I stood up, "Would it help if I laid with you again?"

She closed her eyes and nodded. I grabbed her pillows and blanket off the floor. I made her bed around her and laid her down. She pulled the covers up to her chin and I laid on top of the covers beside her.

She made no expression, "Thank you."

I looked down at her, "Always shorty. Now sleep."

She nodded and turned her back to me. I absentmindedly reached over and started rubbing her hair. She didn't pull away or tell me to stop; so I figured she just needed this right now.

I stayed like this for so long; that I didn't realize I was drifting off to sleep myself.

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(A/N: I adore the relationship I created  between Jiraiya and (Y/N). I've got a soft spot for the pervy sage 😭)