Under the Stars (Celestial Series #1)

Chapter 3

I don't know how I managed to walk away after I said those words to him. I somehow felt proud of myself because I didn't cried in front of him. I won't give him the satisfaction of seeing me weak and broken. I don't want him to know that I am still not over him, over us. Napapalatak ako nang maisip ang eksena kanina sa opisina. He has moved on already while here I am, still stuck in the past. I don't think I will ever move forward and forget about us. He's been a part of me and it's hard to throw away all our memories. Ang sakit isipin na ang dali lang para sa kaniyang itapon ang kung anong meron kami noon. All along I was hoping that he'll come back to me like what he promised but I guess promises are really made to be broken.

Bumalik na ako sa table namin at walang sabi-sabing nilaklak ang bote ng Cuervo. Wala na akong nalasahang pait siguro dahil mas nangingibabaw ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Bakas ang pagtataka sa mukha nila Kayle at Zane pero hindi ko na sila inintindi. I know they're wondering kung anong nangyayari sa akin. Hindi naman kasi ako pala-inom. I do drink naman but occassionally lang and in moderation. During our college days kasi ako lagi ang nag-uuwi sa dalawang 'to kapag nagba-bar kami. They will drink 'til they drop everytime lumalabas kami kasi alam nilang may aalalay sa kanila, but not this time.

Naramdaman kong umiikot na ang paningin ko dahil sa dami ng nainom ko kaya sandali kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko at ilang sandali pa ay hinatak ko na sila papunta sa dance floor. Buti na lang at hindi na sila nagtanong kahit alam kong kating-kati na silang tanungin ako. Nang mapunta sa gitna ay saktong nagpalit ng tugtog ang DJ.

Something must've gone wrong in my brain
Got your chemicals all in my veins
Feeling all the highs, feel all the pain

Let go on the wheel, it's the bullet lane
Now I'm seeing red, not thinking straight
Blurring all the lines, you intoxicate me

I smiled and started swaying my hips not minding the people, specifically the hot stares of some men around me. Para akong nakuryente when two familiar hands started caressing my waist but I continued dancing. Hinarap ko ang lalaking iyon pero hindi ko namukhaan dahil nanlalabo na ang paningin ko, must be the alcohol. Hinanap ko sina Kayle at Zane but I can't find them, nagsisimula na akong mahilo kaya ipinikit ko ulit ang mga mata ko at ipinagpatuloy ang pagsayaw. I raised my hands slowly, running my fingers through my body then I settled my hands on the neck of the man behind me.

Just like nicotine, heroin, morphine
Suddenly, I'm a fiend and you're all I need
All I need, yeah, you're all I need

I felt his hands making their way up until it landed on my shoulders then he made me turn around in a slow manner, and the moment I opened my eyes, I met his eyes, burning with desire. He's looking at me like a predator to its prey. His piercing eyes are on me, then it dawned me. Those pair of jet-black eyes are the ones I wanted to stare at me forever. The same eyes that made me see what love is.

It's you, babe
And I'm a sucker for the way that you move, babe
And I could try to run, but it would be useless
You're to blame
Just one hit of you, I knew I'll never be the same

Even with the spirit of alcohol invading my system, I can still recognize him. My heart does. Every time I see him or think of him, it makes my heart go crazy. And he's the only one who can make me feel that way.

His face went closer to mine then he whispered something I am longing to hear.

"Love."

Just one hit of him and I knew I'll never be the same. He just called me love. Just a word from his lips and everything is in turmoil.

Love. That was our endearment to each other. He sometimes calls me baby but only when I'm mad or upset. It's been what? 4 or 5 years? since the last time I heard that from him.