The Man Above The Boy Within

Apocalypse

I've been flying through the turbulence,
I can't be the only one who's lonely,
You'll never understand what my life is,
All I do is fight and be at war,
I keep laughing like all is well,
But I'm a mystery man with amnesia,
I keep begging for my sanity and peace of mind,
The boy within is set on a journey to the sun everyday,
He burns with no fuel,
He ashes out into the dark,
In the trenches where no one sees,
He's the ghost you keep seeing in my eyes,
The ghost that shed tears everytime.

I've never been so far away from myself,
Everybody seems unhappy with me,
My whole world isn't so mine after all,
My universe isn't all mine,
I share it with my fears,
I share it with my lies,
Are there parts of me I still don't know?
Am I the reality of insanity?
Maybe I need to be completely alone,
Shut everyone out and see how that goes,
I wonder if crazy is me and I'm in denial,
Like a nail on fire,
I'm often in my world,
I'm scared of my feelings,
In the midst of my madness,
On the verge of my tears.

I should not feel so lost,
I should not feel so numb,
I'm in control of this chaos,
I can’t be so negative with these bad thoughts,
I’m ready to see the silver linings,
I know I’ll be better but I need a sedative for now,
Let me sleep through the struggle,
I keep yelling into a vacant distance,
Screaming under the shower,
The tears, rolling down my cheeks with the shower,
I'm helpless in an ocean miles away,
Now where do I go?
Now that mind is flooded,
How do I ever find a cover for my cold soul?

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