𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐎 𝐌𝐄. 𝙟𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙖

chapter seven

olivia rodrigo

joshua cuddled me harder than he had ever last night, but he woke up before me, and i just didn't want to get up.

"5 more minutes!" i said, throwing a pillow at josh, "babe, cmon! it's a free day." he said, and my mind flashed to place i didn't want it to.

i got up, and looked at josh, i probably looked like shit, "you're so pretty." he said, stroking my cheek.

his hand was on the headboard and my legs were around his waist, "good girl." he huskily whispered in my ear.

i shook out of it, "liv? you were staring at the wall?" he said, and i laughed, "nothing." i said, quickly gulping.

jesus, i'm more horny than josh.

"okay then." he said, walking into our bathroom. i sighed, why was i like this? josh was always so sweet, never mentioning sex and suddenly i'm only thinking about sex.

sure, josh and i have had sex but not that often, i mean we're technically only teenagers. but teenagers do dumb stuff, like hooking up and sex.

shit, why do i care so much? if i want to have SAFE sex with my boyfriend why don't i just tell him? but wouldn't that be weird.

shit.

olivia stop thinking about this!

i sigh, and walk over to my room and get ready. i already took a shower yesterday, so there was no reason for another one.

"JOSH!" i practically screamed, running into his open arms. my legs wrapped around his waist as we hugged and he stepped back.

"liv! i missed you!" he said, and i got down, i was smiling so hard. "i missed you more." i said, and he smiled.

we were separated because my grandma died, and i was gone for a few months, josh acted like we hadn't facetimed almost everyday.

i hugged everyone else, but i stayed with josh. "let's have a bonfire at my house." matt said, before they made us live in those apartments close to set matt rented out a huge house that most of the cast lived in.

but josh, julia, frankie, joe, and larry lived in a house together that we all picked and it was more homey than matt's was.

well, i lived with julia and all of them, but some of us had to room together. like julia and i shared a room, joe and frankie shared, and josh and larry shared.

we all agreed to have the bonfire, and josh and i went shopping for s'mores ingredients. we were in joshs car.

lately i had been falling for josh, i guess i forgot to mention that.

"are we ever gonna talk about how we left things?" josh said, turning down ribs by lords. "i don't know, are we?" i snapped back.

"we kissed and then YOU ran liv, not me." he said, and i scoffed, "well, it's not my fault that you kissed her like 2 hours before you kissed me." i said, and josh stopped in the walmart parking lot.

"so that's how we're gonna play this?" he said, looking into my eyes, "josh! you know what you did, and you know how i felt about her." i said, starting to tear up at the memory.

i pushed my emotions back, "but olivia, i like you. not anyone else, just you. she kissed me, i shoved her away as soon as she kissed me. you saw it." he said.

the tears came back, "it still hurt me josh, that's all i want you to see." i said, my voice cracking as the tears came to the surface.

"i know liv, i'm sorry." he said, wiping away the stray tears, "i'm gonna make it up to you." he said, holding my face.

he kissed me.

i finished the outfit i was going to wear, i mean we were just lounging around, so it was sweatpants and a shirt i stole from joshua like 8 months ago.

"hey babe." he said, walking into my room as i was brushing my hair out, "hi." i said, giving him a kiss.

i threw my hair into a messy bun, and he was just watching me, i looked at him through the mirror, he was lovestruck.

"didn't your mother ever tell you it was rude to stare?" i said, in a teasing voice, "i mean, yeah, but you're different." he said, snapping a picture of me.

love.

i loved joshua basset, and i wanted so bad to say it, so bad.