"So, Ive got something to tell you."
Josh started.
Tyler nodded waiting patiently.
"You see... a little over a week ago, i was in my cabin just sitting there talking to Frank when i felt very sick..."
Josh tried to explain.
"OH MY GOD ARE YOU DYING??" Tyler asked, obviously extremely worried and frantic.
"No no no! Its just- i started throwing up and Frank had to get a counsellor to come help me and we went over every possibility of what could possibly have made me so sick and...."
"Josh its okay, you can tell me." Tyler smiled softly.
Josh nodded.
"Im- Im pregnant and it's yours." Josh blurted out. He felt an instant wave of guilt, regret and embarrassment wash over him at full speed and he started crying.
***
Frank slowly opened the envelope in an effort to not tear it. He gently slipped the letter out and unfolded it.
"Dear Gerard,
Dad quit drinking so much. He's not sober but he's much better.
I realize now that I trusted dad a little too much. Last night he brought a new girlfriend of his over and she really hurt me Gee. He was just sitting there and let her. I realize now I believed everything he would tell me without questioning it. Im sorry for being such a horrible brother to you for so long. You're not a bad person, there's nothing wrong with you and you don't have to change. I love you just the way you are, I just wish Dad did too. Im sorry he doesn't but its just how he is and I don't think he's going to change like i have.
I miss mom. I miss you, sometimes I wish you would write me letters back but I understand you're probably busy, that or I hurt you enough for you to hate me. If thats the case Im so sorry Gee, really I am. Ive changed. I hope you get to come home soon.
PS: could you say Hi to Kristen for me? I miss her too and I want her to know that I love her.
Love, Mikey."
Frank felt his heart aching. He slowly folded the letter back up which opened his vision to his soaking wet boyfriend in front of him.
"Frankie?" Gerard asked in a hushed tone. He was visibly hurt. His hair was messy and curly, water dripping down his body and a towel around his waist.
"Gee... I- Im sorry. I shouldn't have."
"You're right, you shouldn't have."
***
At 8pm on a Saturday, Two boys found themselves sitting on rocks above a waterfall. Just watching as the waves crashed down.
At 8pm on a Saturday, Two boys found themselves sobbing at the edge of a waterfall.
At 8:30 on a Saturday, a voice could be heard echoing over the falls. "Don't do it, please."
At 9pm on a Saturday, a splash could be heard, a sound that a very certain someone would have echoing in their head for the rest of their life.
***
Gerard had woken up before Frank.
"Gerard are you okay!?" Frank asked, evidence that he had been crying just moments ago plastered on his face.
Gerard shook his head.
Frank had never felt more selfish in his life than he did in that very moment as he thought to himself.
Well if they didn't take them to the hospital after almost drowning will they even take Josh to the hospital when he goes into labour? How are we supposed to get out of here otherwise?
Frank shook his head and walked away from the bed.
Frank took a deep breath sitting down in a nearby chair trying his best not to relive the past 4 hours in his head. He failed.
***
Frank handed the letter that was stuffed away in its original envelope back to Gerard before standing up and walking out the door.
He found himself back at his and Josh's cabin. He was greeted by an overly ecstatic Josh who went on and on about how supportive Tyler was and how excited he was to be having a baby with the 'love of his life.' Frank couldn't bring himself to care.
"I fucked up man, I royally Fucked up." Frank sobbed.
Frank proceeded to explain the events of reading the letter the he just wished he never picked up, he just wished he knew how to mind his own fucking business.
In the end the two decided together that it would be best if Frank went over to Gerard's and apologized so they could talk about it and so Frank could make it up to him.
When Frank got there Gerard had said he didn't want to talk about it there because of Brendon so the two decided to sneak over to the nearby waterfall. It was technically off of camp property but there was no fencing and they planned on being back before anyone noticed. (Gerard knew by experience that it was impossible to escape that way)
The two sat by the ledge on a rock and watched the waves hit the bottom.
"When I was little, like around age 6 my dad became an alcoholic. He drank non stop- he drank a whole case of beer a day by himself. He would get violent and hurt my mother. Mikey was only three so I would try my best to protect not only my mother but my little brother as well. I took everything. My dad would hurt me..." Gerard started.
Frank was silent for a moment.
"Oh?... OH!" It hit Frank like a bullet and suddenly he realized why Gerard had always been so afraid of being touched. His dad had abused him.
Gerard nodded on the verge of tears but decided to continue anyways.
"When i got that letter from Mikey today, I couldn't handle it. I took everything to protect him! And for what? Just for him to go ahead and hurt him just the same!? No parent should ever bring over someone who would hurt their child like that, especially not just watch and let it happen."
Gerard took out a pack of Cigarettes from his pocket and removed one. He reached into his other pocket looking for a lighter but found nothing but dust. He sighed a shoved the pack back in his pocket.
"I didn't know you smoked." Frank stated, finding himself fiddling with his hands out of nervousness. He wasn't good in serious environments.
Gerard didn't say anything.
"My dad hurt me my whole life before sending me here. I swear to god he probably killed my mom! The only person besides my brother who I ever felt loved by. Then he turned my own brother against me... until now. In all honesty though, I would rather Mikey never talk to me again and hate me forever than for him to go through what I did. But I guess I don't have much of a choice anymore do I?"
He paused for a moment before tears started to fall from his eyes at lightning speed.
"He really hurt me Frankie. I swear I send Mikey letters I send him them every day but my dad must just burn them like the piece of shit he is. I- Im not mad at you Frankie. Im just hurt. I wasn't ready for you to know yet." Gerard sniffled.
"Then when were you going to tell me?" Frank asked pulling Gerard into a hug.
The two stood there crying into each other's shoulders before the rocks under them started to crumble.
All Frank could recall after that is the crushing and burning feeling of being engulfed in pressured water as a hand slipped out of his grip.
Frank was pulled from his memory as he felt warm arms around him. Gerard had gotten out of bed and leaned over Franks chair to hug him.
"Im sorry. I slipped." Gerard whimpered.
"I know. Its okay."
The counsellor rushed in.
"Oh good, you're awake" She smiled.
"Our on site nurse ran some tests, Frank, most of your injuries were acquired during the initial impact of the water, you broke an arm and have some pretty nasty burns/rashes on your back and legs which can be treated with ointment.." She turned to face Gerard.
"Gerard, Frank broke your fall/impact and therefor most of your injuries were acquired from being under the water, in other words you almost drowned. Your lungs filled with water and the pressure of the water on your body closed them entirely. You weren't breathing for 8 minutes. You were pronounced dead for 42 seconds before we managed to revive you. Your injuries should heal with time however you will be bed bound for at least 2 weeks." She announced.
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Mission number 38 (Frerard + Joshler)
FanfictionWhen frank is met by his parents disappointed gaze he gets sent off to camp where he meets a boy his age named Gerard. Will Frank be able to survive this crazy camp with help of his new found friends? (Frerard, Joshler, some Ryden) This is Book 1 C...
