☾𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠☾ ☾𝚢𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚞𝚌𝚑𝚒☾

Chapter 4

vote pleaseeee. or I'll make it a sad ending🙈 "Thanks" I said while smiling. She nodded her head and we walked out the door. We went back to the gym. When we walked in everyone looked over at us. "Where'd you guys go"! Daichi yelled. --------------------------- ⚠️Trigger Warning ⚠️ There will be a little suicidal thoughts so if you don't feel comfortable you can skip this chapter or scroll to the end. --------------------------- I looked over at daichi. "Oh, me and Yachi went to the nurse. I fell earlier that's all" Suga look over at me. "Are you ok now" I looked over to suga trying to smile. "Yes!" That was the dummest excuse ever what's wrong with me. Shit they probably think I'm lying why do I have to be so stupid. I looked down at my feet embarrassed. I saw Tsukishima looking at me out of the corner of my eye. Tsukishima P.O.V Yamaguchi's been acting strange lately. He didn't stop by my house like he usually does today. He doesn't even come to lunch anymore and he's doing that thing when he looks at his feet when he lies. Not to mention he wears long sleeves now. He couldn't be cutting again could he. No he promised. I shouldn't just be assuming stuff like that. It happened a long time ago anyway. I'm sure he's fine. Maybe I should ask him anyway. Back to Yamaguchi P.O.V Me and Yachi sat back down at the bench. I could see Yachi giving me worried glances. I hated it, I didn't wanna be pitied. I didn't deserve any of it. When practice ended I walked back up to the club room with the others. I just sat in the corner waiting for tsuki so we could walk to class. Tsuki kept looking at me. Yachi couldn't have told him anything. Right? He walked over to me and sat down. He just stayed there until everyone left. I got up heading towards the door before he grabbed my arm. I turned around to look at him. "We should go to class now" I said smiling. Tsuki looked at me. "Can we talk" I got scared. Yachi promised she wouldn't tell. She couldn't have told him so quickly. "Yamaguchi have you been cutting again" I pulled my arm out of his grip. "Why would you think that, You really believe that I'm-" Tsuki looked at me with worried eyes. I had to leave I can't lie in front of him what should I do. "I gotta go" I ran out of the room and ran to the school. Shit why is this happening to me now I should've hid it better I hate myself Tsuki shouldn't be friends with me no one should I don't deserve anything I could feel the tears starting to build up in my eyes. Their was a lump in my throat that wouldn't go away. I was running through the hallways. I felt everyone's eyes looking at me. I wanted them to stop. Why can't they stop. I couldn't stop the tears from running down my cheeks. I ran to the bathroom and hid in the nearest stall. I set my backpack down. I locked the door and sat on the toilet. I held my legs against my chest. I couldn't stop myself from crying. The thoughts started to bottle up in my head again. I'm not good enough Not for anything, or anyone Not to play volleyball Not to breathe Not to live Maybe I should end it Would anyone even miss me I was crying so loud I didn't notice someone come in and go to one of the stalls. I finished crying and left the stall. I looked up at the mirror. I was disgusting. I took my mask off and rinsed my face. I touched the bruised area and winced at the pain. I put the mask back on and left bathroom. Suga P.O.V I was in the hallway opening my locker. I heard someone running and looked over and saw Yamaguchi running. I saw a tear fall from his face. Why was Yamaguchi crying. I never saw him cry before he was always happy. I decided to go after him. I looked around where he ran and couldn't find him. I decided to go in the bathroom and heard some crying heavily. I saw Yamaguchi's backpack on the ground of the first stall. I knew it was him but I decided to go to the last stall and wait for him. I heard him leave the stall. I opened the stall a little to look at him. He looked in the mirror. He looked disgusted looking at himself. It broke my heart. He took off the mask he's been wearing. His cheek looked bruised. He touched it. It looked like it hurt. What happened to him. Who did that to him. I have to find out. Maybe I should tell Daichi. I got out of the bathroom stall and left. I headed towards my class. I should talk to Daichi about this. Back to Yamaguchi P.O.V My eyes are still red from crying. I let out a scoff, I'm pathetic. Sometimes I just wish I could take the easy route and end my life. Maybe that way it'll just numb the pain. The pain of living like this. It's not like anyone cares about me. Would they even miss me if I did. I don't matter. I've spent my whole life thinking and questioning why I live like this. Why me? What did I do to deserve this? Did I do something wrong? Does god hate me? I look at the empty hallway and slowly start to walk. There are classrooms full of students. Some are laughing and running around. Some are taking notes and listening to the teacher. High school isn't like the movies at all. I thought there would be drugs and parties everywhere but for the most part everyone just focuses on getting good grades. My grades are ok. Definitely not as good as Tsuki but enough to keep me on the team. When I'm in the middle of the hallway I start thinking I kinda wanna ditch school. I don't wanna anyone to see me like this. I turn around and start walking the other way. I take a sharp left turn towards the cafeteria and a right turn when I see the double door. I walk faster and open them. It's almost a breath of fresh air. No more judgement. I can just be me. I hear the doors close behind me. I walk down the steps to go to the local gas station to get some food. It was kinda far but I was a bit hungry either way. I started walking across the street and down the road. It wasn't hard to get there. I would just have to go down this path for 10 minutes, turn into an alley then turn left. I started to walk for a bit. My legs were getting tired and they still hurt from the bruising. Today was the worst day. I had walked for ten minutes and I was turning into the alley. I heard some people walking in as well but didn't think that much of it. I turned around real quick to see who it was. I saw three boys. I think they are in high school cause they had uniforms. But they were tall and muscular. They snickered when I looked back. I made eye contact with one of the boys. The one on the right side had black hair that covered most of his face. He has two earring on each ear and wore a black bag around his back. He looked kinda prettier then the other two. The one in the middle has spiky blond hair and was the taller of the two. He had a mean look on his face. The shorter of the two had brown long hair that reached up to his ear. He had an uneasy look on his face. They all looked like the type of people you wouldn't wanna mess around with. I turned around and started to walk a bit faster. I could hear their footsteps getting louder. They must be walking closer. I just sped up my pace a little. But they went even faster. I tried to fast walk but tripped on a rock. I fell to the floor. My face hit some muddy water hard and I felt a little blood flow down my face. My knees hurt. I felt a hand latched around my arm. It was really tight. I lifted my head and turned around to see all 3 boys surrounding me. I looked at their feet and up to their face. My breath came out shaky. Fear overtook me. I knew what was about to happen by the expression on their face. --------------------------- (A/N: Hey guys sorry I didn't publish anything yesterday. I'll go right another chapter today if I can. If you have ANY suggestions PLEASE tell me in the comments! Thank you! Word Count: 1,515